Is anyone else in college and want to ctb?

[Squiddy]

Brain fog is my main reason for wanting to ctb, but if I fail college, that's all the more reason to do it.

 

[Rachel74]

Brain fog is my main reason for wanting to ctb, but if I fail college, that's all the more reason to do it.

Would you still have the urge if you did not fail college?

 

[TiredOfLife95]

I had to quit my college for brain fog and the inability to have a regular life (because of my severe depression), I know your feelings...so sad, I wish you to succeed.
I don't see a future in my life without a college graduation, plus pressure and expectations from other people and society in general is killing me, so I want to ctb as soon as possible.

 

[Squiddy]

Would you still have the urge if you did not fail college?

Yes I would because of this brain fog

 

[StillWaiting]

I am experiencing it now.
Can barely study. Don't remember what I studied even though I spent hours trying to study.
Fail college or dropping out is what I am afraid of.
I would rather ctb if dropping out is a choice. My parents won't let me go if I were to drop out

 

[Rachel74]

I also have this brain fog and I have it for over 22 years, I have done my best to learn to live with it. it is not easy but I have had to overcome a lot of broken promises and dreams but I am still here now. Distraction is the best form of medicine for me. I am not saying that will work for you but anything is worse a try and I have found CBD Oil to work really well for me.

 

[EmptySteph62]

If I fail out I'm definitely gonna ctb, a possible degree in what used to excite me is really all that I have left to hold onto, other than the guilt of leaving my family

 

[Squiddy]

I am experiencing it now.
Can barely study. Don't remember what I studied even though I spent hours trying to study.
Fail college or dropping out is what I am afraid of.
I would rather ctb if dropping out is a choice. My parents won't let me go if I were to drop out

Failing out is probably my biggest fear

 

[Squiddy]

If I fail out I'm definitely gonna ctb, a possible degree in what used to excite me is really all that I have left to hold onto, other than the guilt of leaving my family

College is one of the only things I'm good at and if I fail, idk what I'll do

 

[EmptySteph62]

College is one of the only things I'm good at and if I fail, idk what I'll do

My thoughts exactly it's all I have these days

 

[RedAlert]

Brain fog is my main reason for wanting to ctb, but if I fail college, that's all the more reason to do it.

Our father who art in college! What are you trying to achieve in college anyway?

 

[Squiddy]

Our father who art in college! What are you trying to achieve in college anyway?

I haven't exactly decided on a major yet, but I'm thinking computer science

 

[White_Room293]

Would you still have the urge if you did not fail college?

I feel like I would too regardless if I graduated or not. It seems entwined with me.

I haven't exactly decided on a major yet, but I'm thinking computer science

I have the same aspirations and I am still deeply worried about how to use it after college properly and get a job. I also don't like corporate america or 40 hour work weeks and would rather avoid that bullshit altogether

 

[Darkhaven]

Yeah i should be in my last year by now, but i failed some subjects and now i have to repeat them before going into the final year of my degree.

 

[RedAlert]

What do you think is causing the brain fog? That usually happens when your mind is idle 90% of the day and generally happens to retired seniors i think, with almost no social interactions, conversations, problem solving...I heard over eating can cause brain fog aswell.

 

[NextBusLeaving]

Felt that way the whole time I was in college but found a way out by accelerating my degree and finishing ahead of time.

 

[Squiddy]

What do you think is causing the brain fog? That usually happens when your mind is idle 90% of the day and generally happens to retired seniors i think, with almost no social interactions, conversations, problem solving...I heard over eating can cause brain fog aswell.

It was my Abilify Maintenna at the time, but I've been off that for a few months now and the fog is still there

 

[manwewaslonely]

sadly. already failing because theres no point and anxiety makes it hard to go to class.

 

[laiduponit]

I had my results not long ago, ended up failing; though I knew that it would've happened, started with high grades in the 90% region then stopped showing up, doing work and no longer showed up to class. I get your pain man, when you're in such a position where you can't think of anything other then wanting to die or wanting to feel better then your brain doesn't help you and just clouds.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

i started being suicidal since i was 8. i've been suicidal in all high school and that was very hard because i always cried while studying i just wanted to die. i've been really suicidal in college crying my tears even in the class and that's why i had to leave the college. i'm still suicidal and my life is getting worse everyday. that's a nightmare

 

[So tired]

College is not the main reason but part of it. How am I supposed to study when it takes all I have to just fight my mental illness? And I honestly have no goal in life whatsoever so I don't see the point anyway

 

[Squiddy]

College is not the main reason but part of it. How am I supposed to study when it takes all I have to just fight my mental illness? And I honestly have no goal in life whatsoever so I don't see the point anyway

I know how you feel. My mental illnesses are also getting in the way of me studying and everyday is a fight, and I'm sick of it

 

[Squiddy]

i started being suicidal since i was 8. i've been suicidal in all high school and that was very hard because i always cried while studying i just wanted to die. i've been really suicidal in college crying my tears even in the class and that's why i had to leave the college. i'm still suicidal and my life is getting worse everyday. that's a nightmare

Not a day goes by where I don't think about leaving college due to this brain fog and my mental illnesses