Is anyone else here not suicidal (anymore) but browse for comfort?

[henry22]

I used to lurk this thread hxc when I was deeply suicidal, literally spending all day in bed any chance I could, browsing. Those feelings seem to have dissipated (probably due to mindset shift, antidepressants, and exercise), but I still browse this forum. It comforts me. Suicide is not off the table for me but now it's something I'm thinking of as an option out of failing health/agency in old age and not an immediate solution to depressing life circumstances/thoughts. I feel safer just having the option, support, and knowledge for the future. Anyone else not suicidal but browsing for comfort?

 

[Holu]

That's wonderful! I'm glad that you are in such a more stable and mentally healthy place.

For many, the idea of suicide is simply a comforting escape, as it can help simplify current stressors by making them feel ultimately worthless since you will be dead.

Regardless of whether or not you're suicidal, if browsing makes you feel comfortable I highly encourage you do it. Perhaps it's due to seeing similar stories and feelings that makes you not feel so alone in a world which so so many feel abandoned and betrayed in.

Whatever it is, keep improving! Prayers that it never happens but should things return to a negative state we are here for you.

Oh and to answer your question, sadly I'm highly suicidal. I typically interact with this community for the reverse comfort it provides as well as the deeper self understanding from interacting with others here

 

[p4nic]

I'm still battling against my suicidal thoughts, but I completely understand you, being here gives me some sort of comfort, feels like I'm not alone on this.
Also, it is very motivating to see stories like yours, where you prove that it is possible to get better. I wish you the best and hope that every day it gets a bit better :)

 

[C:/]

I can have periods of time where I feel suicidal, but for the most part I can go most days without those thoughts