Wrennie
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- Dec 18, 2019
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I actually want to hurt my loved ones. I resent them deeply. I love them wholeheartedly yet hate them simultaneously, if that's even possible?
There were decisions that they made for me that I couldn't object to that ultimately lead me to where I am now; in a state of constant mental anguish and craving an escape through death.
My family is also "perfect" and I'm the "defect" of the bunch, and I've had to live with that knowledge for my entire life, while also knowing that my situation was entirely preventable had my parents not screwed up so horrifically when raising me.
There were decisions that they made for me that I couldn't object to that ultimately lead me to where I am now; in a state of constant mental anguish and craving an escape through death.
My family is also "perfect" and I'm the "defect" of the bunch, and I've had to live with that knowledge for my entire life, while also knowing that my situation was entirely preventable had my parents not screwed up so horrifically when raising me.