Promortalistic4Life
Efilist
- May 29, 2020
- 47
I would absolutely love it to look like an accidentYes. Thinking about making it look like an accident by just driving into a tree or something.
SameI don't care about my loved ones, the only reason I'm still here is the fear of failure, it's hard to die.
The only reason I didnt CBT yet is because my partner is still alive. And the last time I talked about it he told me he would shoot himself if I ever did. He started sobbing about how he cant live in a world that im not in. My parents dont give a crap, hes the only guy in the world who cares.
Same. Every fucking day is the same for me since the last 3 years and I'm convinced that it'll never get any better, absolutely no matter what I do.but I'm coming around to the idea that I just can't suffer any longer just for them.....
Totally understandable. I wish I had shitty parents as well (assuming you have one), that, well... I would have been gone since a long time. But there are some people in my life that I want to deeply hurt, as much as possible, to show them "look what you've fucking done to me". So revenge is kind of a reason for me as well.No, I want my suicide to look as much of a suicide as possible to spite my parents.
I'm actually the opposite. I wish my mom would CTB as well after I'm gone but I'm afraid she won't (she's christian) and she will either suffer for the rest of her live or die painfully from a broken heart + she's already often in great pain due to her migraine... god, this whole situation is so fucked up. I Wish so fucking badly that I could just erase the entireuniverse (multiverse), every single atom to ensure that no live willever emerge again to only suffer meaninglessly.The only reason I didnt CBT yet is because my partner is still alive. And the last time I talked about it he told me he would shoot himself if I ever did. He started sobbing about how he cant live in a world that im not in. My parents dont give a crap, hes the only guy in the world who cares.
Me too.Same . Conditioning - ready - acceptance.
Just waiting for time
Yeah man im so close to that point which pain is unbearable, and i am fucking forced to ctb, when i would be really happy if my body was ok, like my first 30 years, im 37 now, but now my body is a suffering machineI care deeply about my loved ones, which is why I'm still here. Eventually, though, I think the pain I feel will overcome that.
I'm convinced the bulk of us are here for other people. But I could be wrong.View attachment 41374
I really have no idea what to do. Maybe flip a coin like Harvey Dent when in doubt?