Ambivalent1
🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
- Apr 17, 2023
- 3,278
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PurpleVoid
There's nothing left for me, but I'm still here.
- May 16, 2023
- 23
It's not my primary reason. But my lack of functioning is causing both my dwindling bank account and my desire to die. I've tried several medications and several types of therapy. I've never tried TMS but I have doubts that it'll work for me, at least not permanently. I'm not willing to live a life where I keep relapsing, losing jobs, having no money. I don't care if I get better, not if it takes years like it did last time, and not if I just relapse again. I don't want to be here anymore.
Finances are my reason for considering CTB so soon. If I had more money in the bank, I might delay for a while so I can get more of my affairs in order. I'm so over-focused on not leaving loose ends for others to clean up - I've caused enough trouble in my life. But with my money disappearing, I'm running out of time to buy a gun. I have two weeks exactly. I don't know if I can see myself having the courage to follow through within that time.
Finances are my reason for considering CTB so soon. If I had more money in the bank, I might delay for a while so I can get more of my affairs in order. I'm so over-focused on not leaving loose ends for others to clean up - I've caused enough trouble in my life. But with my money disappearing, I'm running out of time to buy a gun. I have two weeks exactly. I don't know if I can see myself having the courage to follow through within that time.
gag_order
Things fall apart; the centre cannot hold.
- Jul 20, 2023
- 32
Yes.
I live in a country where the economy and job market are completely fucked and nationwide bankruptcy is expected shortly. If you're lucky to get a job it will be minimum wage, which doesn't even cover rent in major cities (which, paradoxically, is where you are most likely to get a job). I am yet to graduate but I don't have any hope for employment whatsoever. There is a strong possibility that I might end up homeless or a freeloader on my sister's back in the next five years. My pride is too heavy for that and I don't intend to stick around to find out.
I live in a country where the economy and job market are completely fucked and nationwide bankruptcy is expected shortly. If you're lucky to get a job it will be minimum wage, which doesn't even cover rent in major cities (which, paradoxically, is where you are most likely to get a job). I am yet to graduate but I don't have any hope for employment whatsoever. There is a strong possibility that I might end up homeless or a freeloader on my sister's back in the next five years. My pride is too heavy for that and I don't intend to stick around to find out.
ChronicPain23
Member
- Jun 22, 2023
- 87
My country is such a shithole, it's hard to live on the minimum wage if you rent a studio apartment. The whole paycheck goes to live.
If you live with your parents then it is possible to put something aside, but here in the villages u in the larger cities there is also a big problem with work, only in the big city there are big jobs.
A lot of people from my country flee to richer countries.
If you live with your parents then it is possible to put something aside, but here in the villages u in the larger cities there is also a big problem with work, only in the big city there are big jobs.
A lot of people from my country flee to richer countries.
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No but debt that I can not pay back is. Unless I find a miracle solution then unfortunately I will be dead.
Yes- money is a primary factor for me. Not to say that it would 'save' me in the longterm though. I don't actually want to get old and ill either.
BlazingBob
Wizard
- Oct 28, 2021
- 610
My declining health and bank balance are intertwined. Both are getting lower and lower.
shantyizlit
Really, what was the point?
- Jul 7, 2023
- 189
I have enough money to be comfortable.. it's not much but I certainly don't find it little even though it's much less than what others in my country make.
I just can't imagine financial problems being the reason for ctb, it must be so hellish to know that such a simple thing could do such a world of difference, and that there are people in this world sitting on enough money to get people like you through the world. I would be tempted for a vendetta.
I just can't imagine financial problems being the reason for ctb, it must be so hellish to know that such a simple thing could do such a world of difference, and that there are people in this world sitting on enough money to get people like you through the world. I would be tempted for a vendetta.
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