Is anyone here going to ctb because they are dying from organ failure? Like if you feel like you have to take your own life because organ failure is causing you excruciating pain and it's going to kill you eventually? And if that's the case, if you could be saved, would you do the procedure and try to live a full life? Do you want to live? Minus this problem, do you have a life that you think is worth living for if you were not dying from organ failure? Or do you hate your life enough to want to die, even if you did not have organ failure that is going to kill you? Reason I ask these questions is, if someone here is going to ctb because of organ failure, but they wish they didn't have it and want to live, if that is a possible to save you, by having someone donate an organ to you, I would be willing to donate an organ, if it saves your life and it ends mine. I may sound like a nutcase for asking this and willing to do this to save a life on here that wants to keep living, but this is what I want to do, if such a thing will be possible. I am registered to be an Organ Donor if i were to pass away, and i plan to ctb, but i dont want to ctb in vein, if i could save someone's life who wants to live, i am willing to do that. I plan to ctb by SN method, and if I do that, my organs will be contaminated, and probably no good to be donated. So if I can die by donating my heart or some other organ I need to keep me alive, I rather do that. I have always wanted to die saving someone's life, but no such opportunity has presented itself to me, and my life is an unbearable hell that i need to die, so if no one here has this problem and doesnt want to be saved, i guess i will die by SN method, but I will feel like I was born with no purpose other than to suffer and just kill myself, and I dont want that but will do it if necessary, but if I can die by saving a life that's wants to live fully, I would really prefer that. By saying all this, in no way am I trying to do this to make myself feel good about myself or make myself look like a hero. I genuinely truthfully just want to do this, and not for any selfish reason, this is just how I am. I'm not trying to be a superhero, I just want to do this because I want to save a life and because it's the right thing to do. Please, if you read this and you are thinking of commenting this post harshly, please don't, I am serious when I ask this, and I am not mentally capable of dealing with trolls, so please be kind when you decide to comment. And if there is nobody on this forum with this problem, someone dying from Organ failure and wants to be cured of possible and keep living life, then just take my post as venting, because this was partially for venting, but I am also very serious about doing this if there is anyone here who wants to be saved. If there is, and you are embarrassed to say it publicly on the thread, please pm me, and and we can talk about it privately if you want to. Again, I'm sorry if this post offends anyone or if it makes me sound crazy, that is not my intention, I just want to be a good friend and sacrifice my life to save another if possible.
