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Square251

Square251

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Mar 19, 2023
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I find it very funny how a friend of mine is talking to me about how happy he is on his vacation with his boyfriend and me also being happy for him, while simultaneously researching methods here on another tab.

I genuinely do care about him and I really am happy for him, I just hate myself just as much. The envy became purely internalized to the point that I don't care about what he has anymore, I just hate myself for not being competent enough to have it.

I've been keeping this away for him as I know how emotional he is and I know he cares about me too, but I just can't handle all this anymore.
 
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