EternalSoul
Member
- Apr 1, 2025
- 7
Hi everyone, I am new to the community, and would like to introduce myself. I struggle with severe mental health and have been undiagnosed for years due to the fact that I have a difficult time being understood through therapy and other forms of mental health treatment. Very much I feel alone and misunderstood by the world around me. I began to perceive a different perspective on life itself about after years of trying to put up a face to the world like everything is fine, and strive through optimism, however a human being can take only so much sometimes. End of last year I made my first attempt of overdose which was nearly successful until in my opinion was unfortunately compromised by (Divine intervention) but that part is a story for another post. After that attempt everyone expected my new chapter to be some sweet resurrection, however that is far from the truth as I feel like life is stringing me along to suffer. I do not want to be here but feel forced to, and let me be clear I have no intentions of staying. Already I have my second and hopefully final attempt ready, but to make everyone around me happy I just gonna put on a happy face a little while longer til I literally can not keep going. I hate living this way- and eventually I'll be far to consumed and just finally give in to myself. I not sure what I am waiting for, I guess I'm just hoping for a miracle or something else profound to develop that might convince me to stay. Life is in my hands at this point so whenever that time comes will be.
