Introduce yourself

[guapogato]

25 and have nothing to look forward to in life. last year was the worst year of my life and this year right after my birthday (same as last year) was a nice little repeat of that. thought I would have CTB by now. the only things keeping me around now are the drive to prepare for CTB, good food, and blowing my savings on that or weed. emotional eating and sleeping is my big steeze, along with playing video games and watching youtube.
born and stuck in the farthest south you can get in the US where plenty of people want me dead already for who I am, which is funny considering how hard it is for people in the US to actually do so without red tape. multiple immune issues that were already proof I shouldn't have lasted this long.
I'm really grateful for finding this place, maybe the singular place in my life that doesn't seem guilt-trippy, or shamed me for wanting what I want. excited to be here actually! now I'm off to eat a cheeseburger.

 

[tired gal]

"Since I was a teenager I've had this overwhelming sense that someday I was going to take myself out. It's an inevitability."

The inevitability of it, right? No matter where I am, it's the shadow lurking just at the edges of my periphery. Thanks for sharing.

 

[jb.fletcher]

My name is Monica, i'm a 21 yo woman from France and I've been suffering of depression since my friend's suicide when i was only a teenager in middle school. I'm still trying to gather the courage to finally ctb

I'm so sorry about your friend Monica

 

[tired gal]

Hi all, I'm tired gal.
32f. Appreciate finding a place that truly respects choice. Whereever life takes me ctb is the ever present final leg of my journey. For as long as I can remember I've known I would ctb. I've described it as inevitable for such a long time, but hearing someone else say the same thing in this thread made me feel so seen.
I have my affairs to sort, but having a rock solid plan fills me with a calm determination.
I head back to my highly censored country next week and hope to be able to reconnect through VPN. If not then my time here will be short and sweet! So thankyou to the creators and mods for protecting this invaluable resource and community.

 

[GuyWhoDiesin2025]

My name is Joe & I'm a 29 year old Gay male who just been dealt horrible cards in life. everyone always thinks that i have a "self hate" issue but that is absolutely not true. i run into A LOT of horrible & stupid people all the time & i hate the place i live at. I ALWAYS have tried making sure I had the best life I could get but my life honestly sucks because all the bad things that happened which i did not ask for but everyone always blames me for it. It angers me. there's a lot of other reasons why too but the major reason is that i hate everyone & want to ditch all of them & leave them behind forever.
dont get me wrong, there's A LOT of people i actually do not hate, but they cant really do anything for me at all. im just done with everything & been done with everything for quite a while.

 

[quins]

Hello all, I'm quins. I'm forty-seven, unmarried--yet still spiritually "pussy-whipped"--, an alcoholic, or better, a sour angrezi alcoholic, and probably one of the few sexual latebloomers of my generation. I don't see my death as being of consequence to anyone. Further, I've alienated *most* people I've known through intentional sabotage (commenting on a once-friend's pubed daughter in jupe-culottes and getting a backhand) which means that suicide itself as the one true self-destructive act is a perfect fit for me. I'm working up a "digital presence", hopefully to try to find some "closure" for my general failures in life. Cheers.