lovechaos
Should I give up or keep suffering...,
- Nov 17, 2023
- 17
I wanted n still want to kill my self blaming all the people cuz of them I'm in this position. Feeling proud how I'm not afraid to die unlike other selfish people. Having atheists believes
eternal nothingness peace exist after death just like before we were born.
Neither having pleasure of money, fame, or selfish things or being alone, always suffering really matters outside our mind. We as a human are nothing more than a selfish false beliefs created by our consciousness that we r some kind of special creation created by holy being. But in reality not really matters. And it's fine if I kill myself right now doesn't matter if my mother cries or it mentally impact my brother cuz in reality not matters.
But apart from these thoughts deep down I feel like I m just giving up so easily. Are people who lives happily and loves every moment are just stupid and selfish. Or I'm just mentally ill.
eternal nothingness peace exist after death just like before we were born.
Neither having pleasure of money, fame, or selfish things or being alone, always suffering really matters outside our mind. We as a human are nothing more than a selfish false beliefs created by our consciousness that we r some kind of special creation created by holy being. But in reality not really matters. And it's fine if I kill myself right now doesn't matter if my mother cries or it mentally impact my brother cuz in reality not matters.
But apart from these thoughts deep down I feel like I m just giving up so easily. Are people who lives happily and loves every moment are just stupid and selfish. Or I'm just mentally ill.
