Method inducing sepsis

[willitpass]

so this is a method and not a method at the same time. more like severe self harm possibly ending in death. for quite some time i have been interested in giving myself an open wound and rubbing something in it to cause a severe infection. this is going to sound horrible, but when i was in hospital for 8 months i was on the verge of rubbing my own feces in a wound to give myself sepsis so i could get out of the psych ward and into a real hospital so i could tell them about my abuse. now the idea has just stuck for whatever reason

 

[Starryeyes]

My mum had sepsis she was told she was going to lose her foot she was in hospital for months she nearly died . Seeing the agony she was in I'd highly advise against this.

 

[OrcWitch]

That is a hardcore method. I don't think I would have the willpower to not go to the hospital and get cured.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Bro, that is not a fun way to go.

 

[SoDead]

Terrible way. In theory you can survive but with your limbs being amputated.

 

[Snake of Eden]

but when i was in hospital for 8 months i was on the verge of rubbing my own feces in a wound to give myself sepsis so i could get out of the psych ward

that is discusting!

 

[Someone123]

so this is a method and not a method at the same time. more like severe self harm possibly ending in death. for quite some time i have been interested in giving myself an open wound and rubbing something in it to cause a severe infection. this is going to sound horrible, but when i was in hospital for 8 months i was on the verge of rubbing my own feces in a wound to give myself sepsis so i could get out of the psych ward and into a real hospital so i could tell them about my abuse. now the idea has just stuck for whatever reason

I would not do that - people who get sepsis often survive but with their rms and legs removed - that would be a terrible way to attempt to ctb.

 

[Peel_the_Banana]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/will-this-work.30622/

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/ctb-updates.30932/#post-567323

 

[$nowLeopard]

Haven't thought about that.
Seems like a terrible method.

 

[xLosthopex]

When I was in hospital a few months ago there was a man in the bed opposite me who had sepsis due to a UTI, he suffered a cardiac arrest while I was there and had to be resuscitated(not sure if he made it or not, he was quickly moved to ICU), but in the day and night leading up to the cardiac arrest he was in so much agony, the rest of us in the ward could hardly bare to watch and listen to him be in so much pain, if he did end up dying it seemed like a really awful way to go

 

[_elliott]

i really would not recommend it. you're way better off just stabbing yourself and bleeding out.

maybe try contacting a therapist about this desire?

 

[willitpass]

it's not even necessarily a suicide method, i just have a history of really serious self harm. i tried to amputate my own foot about 6 months back. my mind is a fucked place

maybe try contacting a therapist about this desire?

i've talked to MANY therapists in my life haha i'm beyond help

that is discusting!

trust me i know

 

[Crimsonghost3]

it's not even necessarily a suicide method, i just have a history of really serious self harm. i tried to amputate my own foot about 6 months back. my mind is a fucked place

i've talked to MANY therapists in my life haha i'm beyond help

trust me i know

If you don't mind me asking how did you try that and how far did you get if you don't want to get into that's cool its none of my business it just is interesting

 

[willitpass]

If you don't mind me asking how did you try that and how far did you get if you don't want to get into that's cool its none of my business it just is interesting

i was in a psych facility and was desperate both to relieve my emotions and to go to the hospital to escape the abuse of the facility. obviously we were under supervision bc we were all mentally ill so i had to get creative. i ripped a towel into strips while i was showering and hid them in my room until later that night when i tied them around my foot and propped it up on a pillow and covered it with a blanket (to avoid getting caught). my foot turned blue, swelled and lost sensation and reflexes. i was able to hold out about two hours, however i had no access to pain medication so the pain is what stopped me

 

[Crimsonghost3]

i was in a psych facility and was desperate both to relieve my emotions and to go to the hospital to escape the abuse of the facility. obviously we were under supervision bc we were all mentally ill so i had to get creative. i ripped a towel into strips while i was showering and hid them in my room until later that night when i tied them around my foot and propped it up on a pillow and covered it with a blanket (to avoid getting caught). my foot turned blue, swelled and lost sensation and reflexes. i was able to hold out about two hours, however i had no access to pain medication so the pain is what stopped me

I feel so bad for you to have experienced that. I find it very interesting though Ive never thought about that as a form of SH while understanding it as a means of escape. I know very few people who have come out of wards unabused and the ones that do are only there like a weekend. I admire the thinking even if its not healthy. I feel you are probably very clever and you have the ability to think outside the box and find a way. While I wouldn't advise for sepsis as it just seems so unpleasant with such a high risk of incredible pain to me if its something you choose I hope you do it safely in a way you will suffer the least even if that just means not putting yourself back in a position to be in a harmful hospital

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

Just wanted to add that besides the possibility of a limb needing to be amputated, a septic infection (which is when the bacteria from your infection enters your bloodstream) the infection can affect internal organs which can lead to other situations and conditions that may kill you eventually, but not before causing much suffering overall.

I say this because my mom who was on dialysis got an infection in the port in her arm where they connected her to the dialysis machine, and that infection spread to her blood (sepsis) which in turn caused what they called "vegetation" on her heart valve/s, which in turn necessitated a few open heart surgeries, to try to remove the vegetation on her heart and then ultimately an artificial valve to replace the damaged one, also the need for meds like blood thinners to ward off clots forming due to the artificial valve. She also always had the possibility of the sepsis returning because they can never be 100% sure the infection isn't still present in the blood and is just dormant, so that worry was always present. If she'd not had the surgeries, or treatment in hospital for the sepsis, her suffering from the sepsis would've been excruciating but yes, it would have indeed killed her. I myself once had cellulitis which they were concerned had already, or would, turn into a septic infection - it didn't, but even so it was one of the most miserable I've felt in my life and i had to be in the hospital for 4 days on IV antibiotics, then longer on oral antibiotics. I just think that there are other, simpler more direct methods than one that could lead to sooo many subsequent medical conditions which will cause you pain, further suffering, worsened quality of life and the constant need for doctors and medical treatments and/or monitoring....and who wants all THAT interference or struggle?

I'm so sorry your current suffering is so intense but please, be kind enough to yourself to not needlessly put yourself through even more pain and suffering. I'm sending you a hug and the hope that you'll find peace somehow in a more gentle way. <3

 

[pento]

so this is a method and not a method at the same time. more like severe self harm possibly ending in death. for quite some time i have been interested in giving myself an open wound and rubbing something in it to cause a severe infection. this is going to sound horrible, but when i was in hospital for 8 months i was on the verge of rubbing my own feces in a wound to give myself sepsis so i could get out of the psych ward and into a real hospital so i could tell them about my abuse. now the idea has just stuck for whatever reason

Don't you have N? This seems like a horrible method. When a method is significantly worse than simply not drinking fluids for a week (terminal dehydration a.k.a. VSED), you really need to reconsider it.