Indecisive about location of attempt...

[Walilamdzii]

So idk whether I should book a hotel that I can check into while pretending that I'm meeting a friend, and then just hope I can do it quickly, or make an excuse to actually travel further away for a few days. Or just to try while my family member is in the adjoining room... but idk how much noise I will make.

The first option I would have to pretend that I was visiting her, then check in to a nearby hotel and people would be suspicious by early evening.

The second option is tricky because I am hella lethargic and depressed when it comes to travelling somewhere at the moment.

IDK what to do.

 

[FuneralCry]

That does sound like a difficult situation, I wish that it's easier to leave this world, it just leads to more suffering how people cannot easily ctb without the fear of being interrupted, to me it's so cruel how things are this way.

 

[Octopixie]

So idk whether I should book a hotel that I can check into while pretending that I'm meeting a friend, and then just hope I can do it quickly, or make an excuse to actually travel further away for a few days. Or just to try while my family member is in the adjoining room... but idk how much noise I will make.

The first option I would have to pretend that I was visiting her, then check in to a nearby hotel and people would be suspicious by early evening.

The second option is tricky because I am hella lethargic and depressed when it comes to travelling somewhere at the moment.

IDK what to do.

One possible solution would be to book the hotel for a day or two. Go check in and if your method takes to long go home and then go back the next morning. Some hotels, at least in America have early check-in if you join there rewards program but there are also some that have it for an extra fee. Not sure what got you to this point, but I hope you find peace in whatever you decide to do

 

[Nadrealista]

I'm not healthy and having to travel elsewhere to simply eject myself is frustrating so I can understand somewhat.

Its truly painful & cruel that there's no dignified way to do this. To have to experience pain also in our last moments often only having the most gruesome of routes to choose from that may traumatize your family & those who would have clean up after you.

Have you decided on how'd you do it?

 

[Walilamdzii]

I'm not healthy and having to travel elsewhere to simply eject myself is frustrating so I can understand somewhat.

Its truly painful & cruel that there's no dignified way to do this. To have to experience pain also in our last moments often only having the most gruesome of routes to choose from that may traumatize your family & those who would have clean up after you.

Have you decided on how'd you do it?

No I haven't decided... I mean really I would rather be in my own space but I'm having trouble researching how noisy my method (ligature strangulation) might be. I don't want my family member to be under suspicion and they will be traumatised if I do this, which they don't deserve. I imagine it would be less traumatising to receive a knock on the door or a phonecall...

 

[Nadrealista]

Would you mind sharing more about ligature strangulation? I'm not very familiar on how to execute this?

 

[Walilamdzii]

Would you mind sharing more about ligature strangulation? I'm not very familiar on how to execute this?

I've been reading everything I can about it for the past few weeks. If you download https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/five-last-acts-pdf.92828/ that and then read the chapter on compression, that's where I got the idea. Specifically I am trying to ctb with cable ties because it was something I could buy, they are too short so I am planning to join 3 together. I've read about 10 case reports where this has worked, but I am not totally certain either.

Another option I guess would be to walk really far and try to find a secluded place where I wouldn't be interrupted, in nature, but I don't know... it feels like someone could randomly interrupt you doing that, anyway.

One possible solution would be to book the hotel for a day or two. Go check in and if your method takes to long go home and then go back the next morning. Some hotels, at least in America have early check-in if you join there rewards program but there are also some that have it for an extra fee. Not sure what got you to this point, but I hope you find peace in whatever you decide to do

Yeah that's something I could do I guess. There are so many reasons why I got to this point, my life has never been the same since I had a psychotic episode and was hospitalised. Since then I've been hospitalised several times. I'm from a small place and everyone treats me differently since then, I've lost an entire friendship group and I just don't feel like the person I was, life doesn't seem to have the potential that I thought it did.. I don't want to continue with my life when I have no chance of feeling comfortable in the place I always considered my home.

 

[Nadrealista]

I've been reading everything I can about it for the past few weeks. If you download https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/five-last-acts-pdf.92828/ that and then read the chapter on compression, that's where I got the idea. Specifically I am trying to ctb with cable ties because it was something I could buy, they are too short so I am planning to join 3 together. I've read about 10 case reports where this has worked, but I am not totally certain either.

Another option I guess would be to walk really far and try to find a secluded place where I wouldn't be interrupted, in nature, but I don't know... it feels like someone could randomly interrupt you doing that, anyway.

Yeah that's something I could do I guess. There are so many reasons why I got to this point, my life has never been the same since I had a psychotic episode and was hospitalised. Since then I've been hospitalised several times. I'm from a small place and everyone treats me differently since then, I've lost an entire friendship group and I just don't feel like the person I was, life doesn't seem to have the potential that I thought it did.. I don't want to continue with my life when I have no chance of feeling comfortable in the place I always considered my home.

Hello! Thanks for the response. Unfortunately the file no longer exists. Could you send it to me somehow? can You attach the file here, or Email perhaps?