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ElTopo

ElTopo

Don't listen to me, I am drunk
Mar 30, 2025
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Could there be way of increasing the likeness of an illness occurring?
Stuff like cancer or a heart failure. Of course smoking yourself to cancer or drinking up to liver failure takes years, are there faster ways of achieving some kind of illness?
I remember I used to hide batteries under my mattress as a kid because I thought it would give me cancer.
 
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cursedlife

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Jun 28, 2024
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If you drink excessively you could die way earlier like Amy winehouse, she died at 27 years old from alcohol intoxication
 
SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
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It's honestly not that hard to get sick. Trace your family's health record, look into some genetic illnesses you'd most likely suffer from then go from there. I'm at a high risk of hypertension and diabetes type 2 and my mom has caught both. She's on dialysis each week and she's one of the reasons why I'm so resigned with living and growing old. I'll be just like her at one point and I thought, "why wait?"

You can most definitely do that or wait a few years until your body eventually gives out.

Just a head's up, dying to an illness is not an easy death. Sure, it provides you a stronger reason to euthanize but I think, seeing from my parents' experience with near-death experiences at the ICU and eventually, a death experience, it changes things for them (my dad dying, my mom falling ill due to the stress and sorrow after his death); my mom is most-often-than-not... empty. Catatonic, almost. What woman she was before was dead and gone in that ICU after she got resuscitated.

TMI. Point is, death by illness is slow but it does make people understand why you'd like to CBT more. They're likely more on your side if you kick the bucket due to a chronic illness because it's nearly natural.
 
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ElTopo

ElTopo

Don't listen to me, I am drunk
Mar 30, 2025
227
It's honestly not that hard to get sick. Trace your family's health record, look into some genetic illnesses you'd most likely suffer from then go from there. I'm at a high risk of hypertension and diabetes type 2 and my mom has caught both. She's on dialysis each week and she's one of the reasons why I'm so resigned with living and growing old. I'll be just like her at one point and I thought, "why wait?"

You can most definitely do that or wait a few years until your body eventually gives out.

Just a head's up, dying to an illness is not an easy death. Sure, it provides you a stronger reason to euthanize but I think, seeing from my parents' experience with near-death experiences at the ICU and eventually, a death experience, it changes things for them (my dad dying, my mom falling ill due to the stress and sorrow after his death); my mom is most-often-than-not... empty. Catatonic, almost. What woman she was before was dead and gone in that ICU after she got resuscitated.

TMI. Point is, death by illness is slow but it does make people understand why you'd like to CBT more. They're likely more on your side if you kick the bucket due to a chronic illness because it's nearly natural.
My family on both sides is extremely healthy, only person I remember succumbing to illness was my grandad who died of a rare illness paired with a stroke, but it was in very old age.
Most of the ones who died, did in accidents.

Sure it's not a good death, but it's something, it's the hope of demise, it would take some weight off me for sure.
 
SoLowHollow48

SoLowHollow48

Corporate Rat
Nov 24, 2025
20
My family on both sides is extremely healthy, only person I remember succumbing to illness was my grandad who died of a rare illness paired with a stroke, but it was in very old age.
Most of the ones who died, did in accidents.

Sure it's not a good death, but it's something, it's the hope of demise, it would take some weight off me for sure.
Aw shucks! Guess you'll have to find other ways. Maybe bad eating habits? Bad sleep pattern increases the chance of heart conditions.

I guess this did cross my mind, you know? I was thinking of denying more effective treatments to just take palliative care and let the earth slowly swallow me back. I thought about how peaceful it would be because then I'll be on a deathbed. I can still talk to my family members without them judging me for my choice to CTB. It will make them less guilty about it. The aftermath of a suicide is... from what I've been through, hella rough. I'm on the other end so I'd beg for everyone on hands and knees to just keep pushing and get gradually self-destructive with their life (like me) instead--if they plan to go.

Being sick seems cleaner and much more palatable to me.
 
ElTopo

ElTopo

Don't listen to me, I am drunk
Mar 30, 2025
227
Aw shucks! Guess you'll have to find other ways. Maybe bad eating habits? Bad sleep pattern increases the chance of heart conditions.

I guess this did cross my mind, you know? I was thinking of denying more effective treatments to just take palliative care and let the earth slowly swallow me back. I thought about how peaceful it would be because then I'll be on a deathbed. I can still talk to my family members without them judging me for my choice to CTB. It will make them less guilty about it. The aftermath of a suicide is... from what I've been through, hella rough. I'm on the other end so I'd beg for everyone on hands and knees to just keep pushing and get gradually self-destructive with their life (like me) instead--if they plan to go.

Being sick seems cleaner and much more palatable to me.
I hit the gym pretty often and I'm kind of obsessed with keeping decent looks, I wouldn't be able to eat bad that way, now that I think about most of my mother's side women have eating disorder. As far as sleep goes I already have a pretty fucked up sleep schedule.

If I got cancer I'd honestly keep smoking and delay treatment until I can't keep up with the pain.