In your situation is there nothing you can do?

[ultrasharpy123456]

Psychological, physical, emotional, spiritual even. In my situation there are definitely things I can do. My problem is more so I have behavioral problems and these stop me for pursing a career or getting a job.

 

[Brown-Jacket Revy]

Technically yes, but... the amount of steps I'd have to take to attempt to rectify each problem feels overwhelming and far more laborious than I can tolerate.

Seems easier just to wait for the right amount of impetus to take myself out.

 

[Gaga786]

Sort of. I wish I could have the strength to carry on, but I know it's just not feasible. I rarely get out of bed and leave the house, let alone work, learn to drive, take care of my parents. It's too much for me

 

[SnowWhite]

I'm particularly struggling with my epilepsy which, despite hopes that I would grow out of it in my teens, has only gotten worse. It makes full time work impossible and part-time incredibly difficult. While it's not the only factor in my situation, a lot of other factors can be traced back to impact from my epilepsy. Be it sleep, anxiety outside of my house, having to sell my motorbike, never being able to drive again, and constant brain scans. The most unfortunate part is my epilepsy isn't photo-sensitive (AKA not the flashy lights kind) and even less is known about nonphoto-sensitive epilepsy so there's very little I can do apart from hope that a cure comes out of nowhere.

It's rough, my life would be a lot easier to rebuild without my fairly frequent seizures but with epilepsy I'm really struggling to figure out where to even start rebuilding. I can't work so I can't afford therapy, I can't learn to drive and had to sell my old motorbike so I can't travel, even my fear of seizing in public makes it hard to enjoy myself while out in public.

 

[flyaway]

There are things that could be done to improve my situation but this will, at least from my perspective, require a tremendous amount of effort and it's simply not worth it for me. At the same time I'm not satisfied with what I have and what I could potentially get being in my current position. Why should I even try anymore if I'll CTB anyway when I get too old and start experiencing serious health issues? So in my case, although my problems may theoretically seem "solvable", I don't think there's anything I could see as a realistic alternative.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I'm particularly struggling with my epilepsy which, despite hopes that I would grow out of it in my teens, has only gotten worse. It makes full time work impossible and part-time incredibly difficult. While it's not the only factor in my situation, a lot of other factors can be traced back to impact from my epilepsy. Be it sleep, anxiety outside of my house, having to sell my motorbike, never being able to drive again, and constant brain scans. The most unfortunate part is my epilepsy isn't photo-sensitive (AKA not the flashy lights kind) and even less is known about nonphoto-sensitive epilepsy so there's very little I can do apart from hope that a cure comes out of nowhere.

It's rough, my life would be a lot easier to rebuild without my fairly frequent seizures but with epilepsy I'm really struggling to figure out where to even start rebuilding. I can't work so I can't afford therapy, I can't learn to drive and had to sell my old motorbike so I can't travel, even my fear of seizing in public makes it hard to enjoy myself while out in public.

None of the anti-seizure medications have worked for you?


At this stage of my life, I just don't have it in me to try anymore. My life circumstances are such that I see no point in trying.

 

[SnowWhite]

None of the anti-seizure medications have worked for you?

not completely. The only benefit change I've noticed, which i'm still not sure is down to the meds, is I go unconscious rougly 10 seconds into a seizure. It's a small victory, but atleast means I don't have to deal with what my doctors describe as "Impending sense of doom". The drawback is I usually lose about 2 hours of my memory and upon exiting a seizure enter this weird state where I'm awake moving and murmuring but not conscious or aware of my actions and can't recognise faces, then as said earlier lose memory of it.

 

[mizumono]

my life is ruined beyond repair… all i have is my job, where i dont even have colleagues, i have absolutely no one, not friends, no partner, and i cant just get those bc ive trying for my whole life with no success, and soon i'll be homeless, so yeah, i'll only have one way out

 

[locked*n*loaded]

not completely. The only benefit change I've noticed, which i'm still not sure is down to the meds, is I go unconscious rougly 10 seconds into a seizure. It's a small victory, but atleast means I don't have to deal with what my doctors describe as "Impending sense of doom". The drawback is I usually lose about 2 hours of my memory and upon exiting a seizure enter this weird state where I'm awake moving and murmuring but not conscious or aware of my actions and can't recognise faces, then as said earlier lose memory of it.

Man, I can't even imagine that. I'm so sorry you have to endure that. Life sure is shit for so many. So unfair.

 

[bluebus]

There is nothing I can do to change my situation unfortunately. I am going to lose my vision and there is nothing that can be done about it. I do have a choice whether I live or die. I choose the latter.

 

[PyramidHead]

If I could treat my mental issues, get over my social anxiety, and put in a tremendous amount of effort into a lot of other things, I could probably live a very subpar life. I don't see it as worth it.

 

[hopeisdead]

Nothing I can do. 99% finances and my mental health has declined so badly that I can hardly work now. I can't focus or pay attention at my job nor am I mentally well enough to go on an interview let alone get another one...or even apply for disability which I've heard numerous times is "very difficult to get for mental health" and "so and so got denied so many times" or "so and so took 6 years to get approved." I will lose my house soon. I've failed my daughter.

 

[777cave]

Nothing I can do. 99% finances and my mental health has declined so badly that I can hardly work now. I can't focus or pay attention at my job nor am I mentally well enough to go on an interview let alone get another one...or even apply for disability which I've heard numerous times is "very difficult to get for mental health" and "so and so got denied so many times" or "so and so took 6 years to get approved." I will lose my house soon. I've failed my daughter.

I'm sorry.

 

[777cave]

Money and Mental health. There is no way out besides ctb.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

I'm sure there is, but u really have to try everything u can. You have to break out of the funk and the self limiting thinking. A couple days ago I had like a 3 day spell of just sitting in my room alone. I was feeling pretty defeated and unmotivated. Then somehow I felt better on the 4th day and I was able to do a few things. I know what triggered this off but I don't feel like going into it. Just getting older and the things that change and everything is just harder. Older age isn't so bad if u have a good setup for your older years. It's a nightmare if u were not able to put your life together in a way that works.

 

[hopeisdead]

I'm sorry.

Thank you. I'm sorry for you too.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally don't wish to exist, I see nothing appealing about decaying from age in an empty and unnecesssary existence I never wished to endure in the first place, existing is just so pointless to me and could never be desirable, there's no peace and safety from suffering in this harmful world anyway, I see existence as just being an unnecessary and tragic mistake. Only death could ever bring me relief and to be peacefully unaware for all eternity is all I've truly wished for.