In preparation for the ‘’night-night”’ method

[Egddios]

It was my birthday yesterday (just turned 36) and I spent the day visiting my dog and spending some time with my father. I don't drive due to numerous TBI's, so my father did me a favor and stopped by Walmart so I could run in and get a few things.

Well, I remembered to hit the hardware department and sure enough, there was a decent selection of ratchet straps. I bought 2, in preparation for the 'night night' method, which I'm loosely planning to execute (ha) by the end of August. Why not now? Well, I'm living alone in an apartment and have the privacy to end my life here without interruption. The lease is up in September, so I've got about 3 months to go.

I feel tremendous relief in having the ratchet straps, and plan to use a t-shirt rather than a cornhole bag as a buffer between my neck and the straps. I have time to practice, though I'm confident I've located the 'sweet spot'.

I'm currently prescribed 2.5 mg of Klonopin, as well as 5mg of Flexaril. I'm supposed to take the Klonopin 1mg in the a.m., a half in the afternoon, and 1mg at night. I'm saving the .5mg doses so I can have an excess supply of benzos when the time comes.

After much research and reading on this site, I believe the 'night night' method is my best option.

Thank you all for your input and support. This is NOT a goodbye post; I just wanted to share with you all my progress towards completing my plan.

 

[Soul]

Happy birthday? x

 

[Egddios]

Happy birthday? x

Thank you :)

 

[NextSummer]

I wonder if there are any autopsy report about the night-night report. I want to know if it really works or if this just a myth. Do you happen to have done some research outside SS and came across reports?

 

[Egddios]

I wonder if there are any autopsy report about the night-night report. I want to know if it really works or if this just a myth. Do you happen to have done some research outside SS and came across reports?

As far as research into this method, the in-depth instruction on this site was what really piqued my interest as the materials needed are relatively easy to obtain. I have witnessed a blood choke at a party quite a few years ago; there was a drunken man who stripped down naked and was damaging the house, so a police officer friend of mine put him in a blood choke and the guy was out like a light in under a minute. Once he lost consciousness, my friend let go and his body just slumped to the floor. He obviously wasn't choking him to kill him, it was more to stop him from further aggression. Anyhow, from what I witnessed, the guy woke up and was obviously dazed as to what had happened.

It's my understanding that the 'night night' method is simply a longer blood choke hold, meant to kill. If the pressure remains constant, one won't 'wake up', and consciousness is lost very quickly. Once you're "out", and the pressure from the ratchet straps remain constant, you won't wake up dazed. You won't wake up at all.

I've watched a few demo videos online to increase my confidence in using this method. I had previously considered hanging myself from a door knob, which also seems to be a successful method. What appeals to me regarding the 'night night' method is, I can complete it in the comfort of my own bed, laying down. I plan to layer towels under my body in the event I urinate while my body is struggling ( I will be unconscious at that point but still). Trying to end my life and leave my body in as dignified a state as possible, you know? I have previously attempted full suspension hanging but was interrupted and brought to a hospital. I've also attempted by stabbing and overdose, so really, I'm now most confident the 'night night' method is the method for me.

In the 'night night' mega thread, kooz does an amazing job in describing how this method works and how to achieve it. That said, I haven't heard accounts of people who have attempted and failed using this method so I assume it must work well.

If you've heard any "survivor" stories of anyone who's failed the 'night night' method, do share as I'd be interested to know what went wrong, etc.

Thank you for your input. Peace

 

[Zhuk0v]

Happy Birthday and I hope the next 3 months will be peaceful for you

 

[Egddios]

Happy Birthday and I hope the next 3 months will be peaceful for you

Thank you kindly, I appreciate your message and hope peace for you, too, however it finds you

 

[200_ponies]

You sound like you've really thought this through and are at peace with your decision. I wish you the best of luck both during these next few months and if/when you attempt!

On a side-note, I'm almost certain the "night-night" method will be my Plan B if I don't get my firearms license approved. It seems like a really nice option, especially since you can just relax in your own home and go peacefully (at least in theory).

 

[Egddios]

You sound like you've really thought this through and are at peace with your decision. I wish you the best of luck both during these next few months and if/when you attempt!

On a side-note, I'm almost certain the "night-night" method will be my Plan B if I don't get my firearms license approved. It seems like a really nice option, especially since you can just relax in your own home and go peacefully (at least in theory).

It's odd to realize this, but yes, I am feeling more and more at peace with the decision to use the 'night night' method. Hanging (either full or partial suspension) had been my original plan. There is a large closet in my apartment and I had envisioned tying one end of the rope or cord to the outside door knob, and running the rope over the door, hanging myself inside the closet with the door closed. I had planned to leave a detailed note on the outside of this closet door for the EMT's/police on scene, to let them know this is a suicide and who to notify.

Then I started reading more about the 'night night' method and watching videos online, and it seemed more and more the right method for me. Just last night, before I fell asleep, I was wondering or imagining what the last few seconds must feel like when you're essentially blood choking yourself out, and I do imagine some sense of fear. That said, I fully plan to take a nice dose of Klonopin beforehand, and on the day I exit, I hope to keep things in my apartment calm and conducive to relaxation as best I can.

For the first time in years, I am seeing my end approaching and while there are many emotions I feel, overall, I am relieved to know I will be going soon. I am so tired of trying to get help only to be shut down by incompetent psychiatrists who ignore my candor. I tell my psychiatrist of how I end up mutilating parts of my body in an effort to control the pain, and I have become somewhat of a recluse, rarely leaving the apartment. Seeking "professional help" has arguably worsened my mental state. I am grateful for the Klonopin though, ha. At least I got that.

 

[DownInaHole]

I want to do this method but I need to be able to pass out first while playing the choking game on myself. Having no luck.

 

[Ruffian]

Yes, happy birthday. I wish I could have been successful at 36, so I hope all goes as planned. It must be a relief to finally make the decision. I'm sorry to hear about the mutilating part, and I know how frustrating psychiatrists can be. I've pretty much given up hope on finding one I like.

 

[Egddios]

I want to do this method but I need to be able to pass out first while playing the choking game on myself. Having no luck.

Honestly, if someone has asked me which method I was planning to use and sure of, I wouldn't have guessed I'd be going with this method. But, after all the information on this site ( a very special thank you to Kooz for his detailed post), I think the 'night night' method is perhaps better than hanging. I had of course considered using a firearm, but I fear shooting myself and somehow surviving, mangled and in the same position mentally. Or worse.

I started practicing to find my sweet spot and once I found it, the method really started to make sense to me and solidify my confidence this will be my final, successful attempt.

Yes, happy birthday. I wish I could have been successful at 36, so I hope all goes as planned. It must be a relief to finally make the decision. I'm sorry to hear about the mutilating part, and I know how frustrating psychiatrists can be. I've pretty much given up hope on finding one I like.

Thank you for the birthday wishes. I didn't think I'd make it to 36, after 3 failed attempts and multiple hospitalizations. I'm feeling done as far as finding a decent psychiatrist who really gets me and has reasonable medication options. I don't want to be a walking zombie, which is how I felt after being on Thorazine and Haldol. These meds may help others, but they didn't help me. My current psychiatrist causes me so much anxiety, I get nauseous when I have an upcoming appointment. He seems so ambivalent and aloof, it's almost like he doesn't hear what I'm telling him (my chronic suicidal ideation, the rapes I have endured, my history of domestic abuse by family members, etc.). It's almost like my psychiatrist has checked out mentally. I wonder at times if he himself is burned out.

I do have a case worker who attends my psych appointments with me, so I know I'm not "going crazy" or imagining his incompetence. She witnesses it too, and tries so hard to advocate for me in terms of keeping me on the one medication (Klonopin) that actually helps me tremendously.

 

[snowman626]

That said, I haven't heard accounts of people who have attempted and failed using this method so I assume it must work well.

I tried this method many times and still not sure if I'm getting it right. My experience is feeling a lot of pressure at the front of my head around my nose/eyes area, a little pain, feeling a little dizzy. Is this how Im supposed to feel?