In need of encouragement to get through the week

[helba]

Hi everyone, I am about to go through a very difficult week that is bound to be socially and emotionally exhausting.

First of all, hello, it is very nice to meet you. I've been lurking on this site for a while and finally mustered up gusto to join. I have been struggling with thoughts to CTB for well over a decade. Lately, things have been exponentially hard. I don't have the right words to describe how awful I've been feeling, [insert eloquent mood description here]. While I do plan to CTB someday soon, I still have things to get in order/prep. So until then, I have to hold myself together and play the game.

This week I will be putting in a lot of overtime, and will be around more people than I usually am. The extra expenditure of putting on a professional smile, engaging in casual conversation, and being the cheerful productive co-worker they expect me to be is going to be draining and painful.

I am so grateful to have a job right now. But all of my energy and will (the little that I do have) is going into try to accomplish the most basic functions at work. There is little energy left to go home and do anything else. I am just barely holding it together. I honestly get scared that I will lose my job due to poor performance. But I am trying my best to keep myself afloat, keep my job so I can feed myself, etc. I must try extra hard this week, whilst running on fumes.

I think I may be rambling at this point. Sorry about the weird stream of consciousness that is this post.

I know I haven't spoken with any of you yet, we are complete strangers. But if anyone feels inclined to share some kind words, a song recommendation, etc., it would mean a lot to me, and give me something encouraging to look back on when things get hard throughout the week.

If you are also in need of encouragement to make it through the week, just know that you have a fellow stranger out there rooting for you, sending well wishes and comforting visitations by cosmic/etheric cats filled with nothing but love (or dogs if you prefer). <3

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

Does this gif of Astolfo being super hyped about something help ?

 

[wilted_biography]

You got this (:

 

[je.suis.prêt]

Do your best, your best is good enough :)

Song recommendations:

(I don't know what kind of music you're into so I'll share a few faves of different genres)

> Tears for fears — Everybody wants to rule the world

> Labyrint — Välkommen Hem

> Bob seger — Old time rock and roll

> Give me the night — George benson

> The Brooklyn, bronx, and queens band — On the beat

> Skid row — I remember you

> Warren G — Regulate

> Guca owl — 今夜はハダシテ

I hope I haven't doxxed myself with my music taste ^_^

 

[Cronetappingout]

Hugs.
Just be easy on yourself and make sure you eat as well as possible and get as much sleep as you can between shifts. I hope your week passes quickly and you are done the overtime. I will be off my normal schedule this week too, looking forward to next week already :)

 

[toforigivelife]

I understand exactly how you feel as far as having a job and how it feels to put energy into something that solves your practical and financial concerns but not your emotional well being.

And, no, folks like us don't have an excess of psychological, emotional or physical energy.

I hope you can get as much rest as you can (sleep can be another one of life's necessities that eludes us) and utilize whatever creature comforts you need during your off hours.

While dealing with work demands try to have whatever makes the days easier on hand, something that comforts you, your favorite drink or snack. Buy a nice lunch for yourself or pack a nice lunch for yourself.

Dress as comfortably as you can and whenever possible, take any moments you can to recharge a bit.

Even if that means taking an extra bathroom break in order to just breathe.

Just do whatever you can to make this upcoming week easier on yourself.

If you have outside support from anyone let them be someone that you lean on when you need to.

I hope this upcoming week goes by fast and I hope you accomplish everything that you need to accomplish (and when it's all over indulge in some self care).

It won't be easy but you'll get through this. Sending good thoughts your way.

 

[Zegers]

When you think things can get better and they get worse, this life is a macabre game.

Listen to music, do what you like, try to evade.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

I'm a little/lot exhausted myself and in need of encouragement too mostly IRL but noone to give it there.

You can do it.

 

[RaspberriesLL]

Sending you positive vibes for this week...you got this

 

[Euthanza]

I get goose bump every time I hear this version of Coldplay's song, I just can't get enough "... I wanna die in your arms ..."

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

Maybe you can ease the stress of the week by spending some money to delegate some things - maybe buy yourself dinner a couple of times or take a cab instead of the subway.

Also, lower your expectations for what you do outside of work - let the dishes or laundry pile up, go to bed early (getting enough sleep will help your stress), etc.

And when you've gotten through this super-busy week, be sure to reward yourself. A Netflix binge, a full day in bed, a new book - whatever says "treat" to you.

It'll be a challenge, but it's do-able!

 

[LifeIsRekt]

Life can be chaotic and messy when you feel the control slipping out of your hands. If you think you're losing control try doing activities that give you that feeling of control back. You only got one shot at this so you might as well do what pleases you and gives you fulfillment (preferably non destructive habits). Take a breather, you got this! Live and let be!

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are struggling. It does sound stressful and tiring what you are going through and I can imagine that it must be hard to carry on. I wish you the best with what you are doing and I hope that you manage to get through the week.

 

[chloramine]

Remember to breathe and take it one day at a time. If it's possible for you to buy meals maybe do that to take some pressure off? I really hope it goes better than expected and that you blast through the week to get some rest. You can do this. I don't know if you've ever watched (or heard of) RWBY, but regardless there are a lot of solid songs from that show. You don't need to watch it to enjoy the music either. Wishing you the best

 

[helba]

Does this gif of Astolfo being super hyped about something help ?

Lol it does actually! I have trouble falling asleep so I need something new to watch as I lay in bed instead of staring at the ceiling. I will be binging this.

Thank you <3 I hope you are well

You got this (:

Thank you so much <3 My long ass work week starts in an hour. I got this, you got this, we got this. It's already so helpful to see these messages.

By the way, your avatar icon makes me smile haha. A blasé blob human, I can relate. Thanks again and I hope all is well over there.

 

[helba]

Do your best, your best is good enough :)

Song recommendations:

(I don't know what kind of music you're into so I'll share a few faves of different genres)

> Tears for fears — Everybody wants to rule the world

> Labyrint — Välkommen Hem

> Bob seger — Old time rock and roll

> Give me the night — George benson

> The Brooklyn, bronx, and queens band — On the beat

> Skid row — I remember you

> Warren G — Regulate

> Guca owl — 今夜はハダシテ

I hope I haven't doxxed myself with my music taste ^_^

2 days down, 4 to go. Thank you so much for the song recs. I've been listening to one song from your list a day at random. So far, I've listened to Guca Owl and Välkommen Hem. Both of these are so so amazing, I've had Guca Owl's song stuck in my head for a few hours now haha.

My best is good enough has been a wonderful mantra to repeat to myself. This all has been incredibly helpful. Again, thank you.

 

[Againstthewind]

I have been in many professions with this exact problem, I always describe myself in work as an introvert with an extrovert battery, sometimes that battery gets low maybe mid afternoon before its time to go home. Being criticized as being 'moody' 'miserable', 'cheer up', 'smile', the usual condescending shit. Putting on the smile and pretending to care about other colleagues' stupid attitudes, and consumers meaningless problems. Make sure OP that you truly decompress when you get home after these things, as you're almost playing a part all day long, and putting an act on all day can be very very, exhausting. They don't know what's going on in your mind, you're having a bigger battle then they are. Screw the criticisms and keep being you.

 

[Cathy Ames]

Seeing this now, for the first time, I am glad to see that you are hanging in there. I can (almost) completely relate. I'm exhausted by peopling and all of my energy goes towards work, with most everything else not done, like ever. I like the idea of your having a nice reward waiting for you afterwards.

 

[helba]

Hugs.
Just be easy on yourself and make sure you eat as well as possible and get as much sleep as you can between shifts. I hope your week passes quickly and you are done the overtime. I will be off my normal schedule this week too, looking forward to next week already :)

I hope your week went by quickly as well <3 last week kicked my ass and I'm still recovering now haha. I know this is coming in after the fact but I wanted to let you and everyone know that your messages really helped me last week. It was really heartwarming to re-read them in my downtime. Thank you

I understand exactly how you feel as far as having a job and how it feels to put energy into something that solves your practical and financial concerns but not your emotional well being.

And, no, folks like us don't have an excess of psychological, emotional or physical energy.

I hope you can get as much rest as you can (sleep can be another one of life's necessities that eludes us) and utilize whatever creature comforts you need during your off hours.

While dealing with work demands try to have whatever makes the days easier on hand, something that comforts you, your favorite drink or snack. Buy a nice lunch for yourself or pack a nice lunch for yourself.

Dress as comfortably as you can and whenever possible, take any moments you can to recharge a bit.

Even if that means taking an extra bathroom break in order to just breathe.

Just do whatever you can to make this upcoming week easier on yourself.

If you have outside support from anyone let them be someone that you lean on when you need to.

I hope this upcoming week goes by fast and I hope you accomplish everything that you need to accomplish (and when it's all over indulge in some self care).

It won't be easy but you'll get through this. Sending good thoughts your way.

I still feel so exhausted from last week but I got through it. Thank you so much for writing me this kind note. I took a liberal amount of smoke breaks to get away from everyone. I had take out and leftovers of said takeout every day and mostly laid in bed watching things on Hulu in my off hours. I was a very pampered, sad, limp noodle.

Everyone's messages were so supportive. It's been a very long time since I've felt safe to share how I am really feeling and what I am thinking. My friends don't know how truly bad off I'm doing as I don't feel safe telling them, for various reasons. Since you all knew, the support hit at a deeper level that I wasn't expecting and the messages felt very meaningful to me. I hope that makes sense.

This is a long winded way of just saying thank you. I'm depressed as hell but I have the strength to emoji smile, here ya go :)

 

[helba]

I'm a little/lot exhausted myself and in need of encouragement too mostly IRL but noone to give it there.

You can do it.

Thank you so much. Last week is finally over and your message helped me make it through. :) I know this is no replacement for the IRL encouragement you should receive, but I am out here rooting for you and hoping that you are able to get some rest and relief from your exhaustion. <3

Remember to breathe and take it one day at a time. If it's possible for you to buy meals maybe do that to take some pressure off? I really hope it goes better than expected and that you blast through the week to get some rest. You can do this. I don't know if you've ever watched (or heard of) RWBY, but regardless there are a lot of solid songs from that show. You don't need to watch it to enjoy the music either. Wishing you the best

It was rough but I made it through. I've recently discovered the magic of ZzzQuil and have been sleeping like a log these past few days to recover. I wish I had the energy to respond to you sooner. I just wanted to say thank you so much for the kind message, it made me smile <3

I've never heard of RWBY. I listened to some songs and my favorite so far is Dream Come True. That's definitely been added to my playlist.

Sending you positive vibes for this week...you got this

Thank you so so much. Sorry I'm late to respond but I definitely felt the positive vibes and encouragement from you and everyone. It was truly special <3

I get goose bump every time I hear this version of Coldplay's song, I just can't get enough "... I wanna die in your arms ..."

Wow, This was a really beautiful cover. I wanted to say thank you for sending your support last week, I truly appreciated the help <3

 

[Cronetappingout]

Thank you for the lovely reply. I am glad all the ideas helped you sometimes it is just one day at a time and being as kind to ourselves as we can be.

 

[chloramine]

I wish I had the energy to respond to you sooner. I just wanted to say thank you so much for the kind message, it made me smile <3

No worries at all! I completely get having to wait to respond or even not being able to respond at all- comes with the territory. It takes up energy we don't always have. I'm glad you liked some of the songs.