
guapogato
drowning
- Mar 27, 2025
- 13
I've tried numerous medications, even ones people would love to get their hands on for depression or anxiety or both over the years. in hindsight it makes me incredibly angry how much of a waste of money and time it was asking for help in the first place (especially ssris what a fuckin joke). none of it helped. I used to want those pills to help and pretended they did to make medical professionals happy. but the problem isn't medical, it's life, i.e. being alive has always been the issue since I was cognizant enough to wish I was "still a baby in heaven" as a toddler. pills were a bandaid on a ship that's already more than half underwater. and made me vomit and shit my brains out. there were no pill highs, having 0 libido isn't fun, and benzos are the most overhyped thing I've ever realized was overhyped (that might be silly to hear for some). if I wanted to be passionless and lifeless, I can do that for free!! no wonder people always assumed I'd turn to hard drugs one day. turns out legal or illegal, most do shit-all... allegedly
I just wish I hadn't spent all that time and money on medication in the first place. or paid someone to listen to my fucked up life. and I know other people can relate. B(
I just wish I hadn't spent all that time and money on medication in the first place. or paid someone to listen to my fucked up life. and I know other people can relate. B(