In a psychiatric ward

[hamvil]

It was bound to happen eventually, but it's not happening the way I imagined it would. Today was a terrible day at work, worse than usual. I lost my spot on a project because I insulted a partner. In an attempt to drown my sorrows, I went out for a drink, but only had two glasses of wine before deciding to head home with some ice cream.

Once I got home, I tried to distract myself by eating the ice cream, but I couldn't hold back the tears. My wife, as always, overreacted and insisted on calling an ambulance. I refused their help, but little did I know that in situations like this, they have the authority to call the police and enter my home.

My wife let them in, and they found some text messages where I made some light threats. After a heated argument, I was given two choices: go voluntarily to the hospital to be evaluated and stay until they deemed me well, or be taken there by force. The difference between the two options seemed negligible to me.

It's been two or three days since I've been here, and it's not a pleasant place to be. The nurses are rude and abusive, the doctors are nowhere to be found, and I don't even know my rights in this situation. I'm trying to talk to a doctor, but they're never available. I don't know why I'm being held here or for how long. People are screaming in the corridors all day, and it's impossible to sleep. I can't fathom how this is supposed to make me feel better.

The hospital staff has given me depakin and risperdal, and I can't help but feel like a prisoner trapped in my own mind.

I hope this is what will make me tip when I have my first opportunity again for my jump, maybe this is the right trigger.

Hi @Jimblue how are you?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm sorry you got stuck in that hellhole. At least when I went to one the last time, the doctor was actually there. The worst thing about ending up in those kinds of places is that it always happens when you expect it the least.

It sucks that your wife escalated things so much. What she should've done was hug you and grab a bowl. Then you could've had a nice evening of TV and ice cream and felt better later. I wish it would've gone like that instead.

 

[Brainslushy]

I feel for you man. I only gone once as an adult and will do anything to avoid it. Awful experience and completely different from pediatric care.

 

[roadtogo]

Firsthand experience, keep your chin up

 

[hamvil]

This experience has been awful and I never want to go through it again. The hospital lacks even a small outdoor space for us to walk, making it feel more restrictive than even a jail where prisoners have access to fresh air. I'm only allowed to walk about 100 meters back and forth in the corridor, and I can't even get to the coffee machine without tipping someone. Additionally, I can't visit the hospital chapel, although I don't believe in God, I find it frustrating that it's not accessible to patients. It feels like it's only there for the "crazy lunatics." I'm doing my best to control my emotions and avoid any outbursts of anger. I'm also completing questionnaires in a way that won't suggest I have bipolar disorder. Not mentioning suicide ofc.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

How long do you think you have until you get out? Controlling emotions in those kinds of places can be really difficult, but if you can manage it, then it should help you to get out quicker. Hopefully you can get back to your ice cream soon!

 

[Sluggish_Slump]

It can be a nightmare to be admitted involuntarily to a psych ward, for an indefinite time. I hope you'll get released from there as soon as possible to get back to your everyday life.

 

[ireallylikemangoes]

I am so sorry that happened to you, having people who obviously love and care for you unintentionally do a terrible thing to you must be devastating, your wife was obviously worried and overreacted because of it. Please talk to her about this as it is not healthy for the both of you, she is probably unbelievably worried of you and you probably do not trust her anymore because of this, best wishes to the both of you and I hope you get out soon

 

[hamvil]

How long do you think you have until you get out? Controlling emotions in those kinds of places can be really difficult, but if you can manage it, then it should help you to get out quicker. Hopefully you can get back to your ice cream soon!

I just gotyou, it was jutst a week long but was long anought, the sense of losing totally powel over yourself, have to ask even to recharge the phone, not mirrors, not looks in door even toilittes. got the ice cream first thing out

It can be a nightmare to be admitted involuntarily to a psych ward, for an indefinite time. I hope you'll get released from there as soon as possible to get back to your everyday life.

slowly getting bad,,,, this will leave a mark not the event, I will forget the that day to day quite soon, it will tak e a while to worget the way I was admitted, plus there could be some legal reminfication that can haunt me in th future, that willl be fun

I am so sorry that happened to you, having people who obviously love and care for you unintentionally do a terrible thing to you must be devastating, your wife was obviously worried and overreacted because of it. Please talk to her about this as it is not healthy for the both of you, she is probably unbelievably worried of you and you probably do not trust her anymore because of this, best wishes to the both of you and I hope you get out soon

He future is planned.... revenge is best serve cold they day well cannot say colder that this, I am in mind a 20 something year plan for her. She will never see if coming if it work and if the relevant people live long enough. It will be fun lo fo fun, for me at least.

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I'm so sorry you've been forced into this situation, it should be a considered human rights violation to drug someone up against their will, basically hold them hostage, then deprive them of anything that might be beneficial for their mental state (like exercise, freedom of movement, access to nature, hobbies, etc) especially if they haven't committed a single crime or act of violence against others.

Hoping you will be out of there soon, and can feel somewhat better once you have your freedom back. While people may have good intentions and sentiment when sending their loved ones to these places, they never seem to think about what YOU have to go through in there, or what the act of involuntary sectioning actually entails. They don't see the reality of what goes on in the wards, from the perspective of patients, they only see it as some kind of necessary evil to "stabilise" someone, when in many cases it is traumatising rather than healing or therapeutic in any way.

 

[hamvil]

I'm so sorry you've been forced into this situation, it should be a considered human rights violation to drug someone up against their will, basically hold them hostage, then deprive them of anything that might be beneficial for their mental state (like exercise, freedom of movement, access to nature, hobbies, etc) especially if they haven't committed a single crime or act of violence against others.

Hoping you will be out of there soon, and can feel somewhat better once you have your freedom back. While people may have good intentions and sentiment when sending their loved ones to these places, they never seem to think about what YOU have to go through in there, or what the act of involuntary sectioning actually entails. They don't see the reality of what goes on in the wards, from the perspective of patients, they only see it as some kind of necessary evil to "stabilise" someone, when in many cases it is traumatising rather than healing or therapeutic in any way.

It is understandable to feel that being involuntarily admitted and medicated can be a violation of one's personal freedom and human rights. It is unfortunate that many people do not fully consider the experiences and perspectives of those who are admitted to mental health facilities, and that the focus is often on stabilization rather than overall wellness and recovery.

I regained my freedom. Not sure who elase care for me on this planet tbh. cannot think of a single person. There was a person on this forum but I misunderstood signs...