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[ganpres37]

i've been doing "better" lately i suppose. still doing therapy and such. still sleeping all the time and thinking about what it'd be like if i didn't exist. laughing here and there too. how have you all been? that may be a stupid question, i apologize if it is.

on a side note, heres a song i found that i love to death. i can relate to it and enjoy it but goodness does it make me upset to listen to. (apologies if this was supposed to be in the music megathread by the way.)

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[okyeah]

waiting for my fucking nembutal. if i got scammed im going apeshit.

 

[ganpres37]

waiting for my fucking nembutal. if i got scammed im going apeshit.

while i don't know your situation, i hope you find peace.

 

[therhydler]

waiting for my fucking nembutal. if i got scammed im going apeshit.

Did you order from A?

 

[Hopeless_soul]

I've been sorting things out, so that my death wouldn't annoy anyone. While running errands and doing stuff here and there, I've felt a tiny bit of happiness thinking that I will finally do it, but then I realise what I'm doing, and get a feeling of stupefaction. I guess it's normal to be scared. I still try to think if I could manage to turn things around, but unfortunately: No.

 

[okyeah]

Did you order from A?

Yes

 

[Redt2go]

I feel better after talking to a therapist but it always feels like false hope adter a few hours. Sleeping a lot same as you but lately I can't sleep through the night. Always wake up at 2am. Being around young people is weird because they're all excited for their future and I don't plan on being alive at this point in 2020

 

[Redt2go]

What makes you feel better? What's better?

 

[Ntothed]

Yes

How long ago? I was going to order from him, I won't be if you got scammed. Keep us updated please.

Hope the N comes in soon for you, I feel your pain.

 

[Hopeless_soul]

What makes you feel better? What's better?

I feel better when the beast (anxiety, self-diminishing thoughts) is not attacking me... I really don't know what better is either...

 

[Didymus]

i've been doing "better" lately i suppose. still doing therapy and such. still sleeping all the time and thinking about what it'd be like if i didn't exist. laughing here and there too. how have you all been? that may be a stupid question, i apologize if it is.

on a side note, heres a song i found that i love to death. i can relate to it and enjoy it but goodness does it make me upset to listen to. (apologies if this was supposed to be in the music megathread by the way.)

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I listened to the song a few times and love it. Had to look up the lyrics and thought a lot about the meaning. It can have different interpretations I think.

 

[Redt2go]

I feel better when the beast (anxiety, self-diminishing thoughts) is not attacking me... I really don't know what better is either...

I bought this book on anxiety that teaches you to talk back to negative thoughts or simply acknowledge they aren't true if that helps...

 

[Hopeless_soul]

I bought this book on anxiety that teaches you to talk back to negative thoughts or simply acknowledge they aren't true if that helps...

What's the title?

 

[Redt2go]

What's the title?

How to be yourself Ellen hendrikson. It's about quieting your inner critic

 

[Redt2go]

How to be yourself Ellen hendrikson. It's about quieting your inner critic

It's really good and helpful I really liked it when I was still hopeful

 

[Hopeless_soul]

How to be yourself Ellen hendrikson. It's about quieting your inner critic

Thank you very much! I'm gonna get it now.

 

[okyeah]

How long ago? I was going to order from him, I won't be if you got scammed. Keep us updated please.

Hope the N comes in soon for you, I feel your pain.

it has been 3 weeks or so. he accidentally told me the wrong date he shipped it out so there was some confusion. I will definitely be spamming these forums if i got scammed. However, I have faith it will arrive. I'll make a post if it comes.

 

[Hopeless_soul]

It's really good and helpful I really liked it when I was still hopeful

I'm not hopeful anymore, but it won't hurt to read it

 

[Hopeless_soul]

Sleeping a lot same as you but lately I can't sleep through the nigh

I take zopiclone, but just sleep 5-6 hrs. Yesterday I fell asleep without taking anything, and woke up after one hour very nervous and anxious. Are you taking anything for sleeping?

 

[Redt2go]

No, I mean I sleep 5hrs like 7pm-2 but I used to be able to sleep 12 straight hours

 

[TiredHorse]

i've been doing "better" lately i suppose. still doing therapy and such. still sleeping all the time and thinking about what it'd be like if i didn't exist. laughing here and there too. how have you all been? that may be a stupid question, i apologize if it is.

Really glad to hear you've been doing better, and I hope things continue to improve. I may have turned a corner myself --it feels like a fever broke on Saturday night. Still rocky, still uncertain, but the tightwire I'm walking feels a little wider, a little steadier.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Really glad to hear you've been doing better, and I hope things continue to improve. I may have turned a corner myself --it feels like a fever broke on Saturday night. Still rocky, still uncertain, but the tightwire I'm walking feels a little wider, a little steadier.

@TiredHorse I was uplifted to read this. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you x And that as days go by maybe tired horse will become lesstiredhorse and start to feel more Arabian horse with a tiny spring in its hooves. One day at a time.

 

[ganpres37]

I listened to the song a few times and love it. Had to look up the lyrics and thought a lot about the meaning. It can have different interpretations I think.

so glad to hear! really makes me happy to share music and know others enjoyed it :)

 

[JustAboutDone]

so glad to hear! really makes me happy to share music and know others enjoyed it :)

Hi @ganpres37 even though I'm older than Medusa I really enjoyed the song! Am really glad you shared it :-) Even more, am glad you're feeling a bit better than made my day yesterday. Love reading when things turn a corner for people. Wishing you all the best

 

[21Neberg]

I'm glad to hear you've been doing better. I hope things continue to improve for you.