Venting Im tired.

[hikaru13]

Helloo this is my first time posting here on ss. I mean I've known this site's existence since last year, but something happened between me and my partner that it made me go back to this forum again. So here I decided to make an account!!

So my issue is that I wanna be understood by him but he frequently tells me phrases like "here i am looking all sad again..." when I'm only expressing my feelings. It hurts to hear when the love of your life just tells you hurtful words and when you try to bring it up, they'd dismiss it and tell you that you can't handle criticism well. I hate the feeling that my emotions are always disregarded and seen as something small. I've tried everything to improve myself, talk about my problems, and a lot of things. But, it doesnt change at all. Things just go back to this. I've tried to OD before and that failed. Im considering of doing that again but I'm not sure if thats my final decision. I honestly am so lost and so sick of myself being dependent on him and other people, and that I'm depressed. I just wanna be the happy person that I wanted to be.

My apologies if my thoughts are pretty scattered . I wanna know your thoughts on this matter and thank you!

 

[dinosavr]

I'm really sorry you feel this way :( It's really unfair to you..
OD is never a good choice though, sorry. It's highly unreliable and not worth the risk because it may cause various serious consequences for your health, both mental and physical. So please consider choosing something else, a different method or recovery, as long as there's less risk involved.

 

[hikaru13]

I'm really sorry you feel this way :( It's really unfair to you..
OD is never a good choice though, sorry. It's highly unreliable and not worth the risk because it may cause various serious consequences for your health, both mental and physical. So please consider choosing something else, a different method or recovery, as long as there's less risk involved.

Mhhmm I only woke up with my parents crying beside me and now I gag whenever I take any pills. Not recommended at all. Thank you btw for taking your time to reply. I appreciate it a lot.

 

[dinosavr]

Mhhmm I only woke up with my parents crying beside me and now I gag whenever I take any pills. Not recommended at all. Thank you btw for taking your time to reply. I appreciate it a lot.

Ohh sure!! No matter how other people judge us, we're a really supportive community. Feel free to vent or ask for support or anything. We're here for each other :)

 

[emptyenvelopes]

Helloo this is my first time posting here on ss. I mean I've known this site's existence since last year, but something happened between me and my partner that it made me go back to this forum again. So here I decided to make an account!!

So my issue is that I wanna be understood by him but he frequently tells me phrases like "here i am looking all sad again..." when I'm only expressing my feelings. It hurts to hear when the love of your life just tells you hurtful words and when you try to bring it up, they'd dismiss it and tell you that you can't handle criticism well. I hate the feeling that my emotions are always disregarded and seen as something small. I've tried everything to improve myself, talk about my problems, and a lot of things. But, it doesnt change at all. Things just go back to this. I've tried to OD before and that failed. Im considering of doing that again but I'm not sure if thats my final decision. I honestly am so lost and so sick of myself being dependent on him and other people, and that I'm depressed. I just wanna be the happy person that I wanted to be.

My apologies if my thoughts are pretty scattered . I wanna know your thoughts on this matter and thank you!

I can relate to not being seen by those you love most, and it's soul crushing. I think a little piece of me died every time I was put down by a lover. When I let it keep happening, I started to lose a sense of who I was as I was trying so hard to be what he wanted me to be.

Don't make my mistake. YOU know you best. YOU know what's best for you. No one else. Your ideas matter. Your feelings matter. Your future matters. I had to learn to be less dependent on others too. I won't lie to you, it feels empty where they used to be a constant in my life. But I am feeling more sure of myself each day. I want you to feel sure of yourself and proud of who you are too. Sending hugs

 

[hikaru13]

Ohh sure!! No matter how other people judge us, we're a really supportive community. Feel free to vent or ask for support or anything. We're here for each other :)

Thank you so much. I've noticed that this community is really supportive with each other no matter what the situation is.

 

[hikaru13]

I can relate to not being seen by those you love most, and it's soul crushing. I think a little piece of me died every time I was put down by a lover. When I let it keep happening, I started to lose a sense of who I was as I was trying so hard to be what he wanted me to be.

Don't make my mistake. YOU know you best. YOU know what's best for you. No one else. Your ideas matter. Your feelings matter. Your future matters. I had to learn to be less dependent on others too. I won't lie to you, it feels empty where they used to be a constant in my life. But I am feeling more sure of myself each day. I want you to feel sure of yourself and proud of who you are too. Sending hugs

Mhmm in sorry that you had to go through that and im glad that you're able to get back on the right track after all that. That really inspires me to stand up for myself this time and yeah it's so true that it feels so empty without them. It's like breaking the cycle that at first it gets so uncomfortable. But, I'll probably get over it like what you did too.