Help I'm tired. If anyone is planning to ctb but hasn't decided yet, read this.

[ironrain]

I'm tired. I'm ugly, stupid, awkward, talentless, a terrible person, no one will ever care about me or love me (I mean, a Chad won't love me, I'm an entitled bitch, yeah) yada yada yada, I don't even want to list it because I'm tired of listing all my flaws. Every day I'm making my situation only worse and I want absolutely zero accountability or consequences for the stuff I've done. I don't want to resolve anything, I don't want to accept things I don't want to. I just want all this mess to end.

If someone wants to ctb, or at least planning, this week, DM me??? I'd like to ctb as quickly as possible because I'm fucking tired of this shit. I have dreams but those are just stupid fucking delusions. And I'd rather die young. So, what I was leading too... I might chicken out of this but still I want to try. I need to be hyped up and I can hype you up because AI won't do that, it keeps telling me to cope. I don't want that. I'm a bad person, that's just it. I don't want to change, i don't want fucking mEsSy ReAl life that's EnOuGh.
Oh, btw, if like to ctb with SN. So if someone knows what dosage, what medication and stuff like that, help appreciated, I'm too brain-dead to understand the protocol.

 

[3rdworldsadness]

Right now,I'm feeling extremely excluded and so tried too. And I can deeply relate to you I have nothing. I'm grieving my life that I never had and won't.... And suicide is like a bright solution to everything....I will do that after I get methods properly I don't want to turn into vegetable state as it will make my life 1000x horrible.

 

[ironrain]

Right now,I'm feeling extremely excluded and so tried too. And I can deeply relate to you I have nothing. I'm grieving my life that I never had and won't.... And suicide is like a bright solution to everything....I will do that after I get methods properly I don't want to turn into vegetable state as it will make my life 1000x horrible.

I wish you luck and if another life exists, you'll be happy there. Or just nothingness, if you prefer that way.

The only thing that keeps me here is my art and my characters. I hate being a creative person. If one can call it creative... Because I don't want my characters to disappear. But at the same time I know that my dream of creating something great is a huge ass delusion because I suck at both execution and originality. I just haven't accepted it yet. So if they die with me... I guess this is how things are supposed to be.

 

[HollowSoul]

25g of SN and Antiemetics are the essencials

benzos and Paracetamol or ibuprofen are optionals but It makes the proccess less uncomfortable. Fasting is also important, try to fast whole day before start the process.