Venting I'm thinking I am going to have to CTB sooner

[Dliena]

I HONESTLY CAN'T TAKE THIS F**KING ZHIT ANYMORE GUYS!! I'M TRYING SO HARD TO HOLD THIS BACK FOR A FEW YEARS BUT THERE ISN'T A SLIGHTEST REDEMPTION ON ME MAN! I SERIOUSLY AM ABOUT TO HAVE A HEART ATTACK PUTTING UP WITH THIS FOR ANY LONGER! I'M SPIRALING!!!! So it looks like this July may be the grand all end all for me if everything goes to plan. Still gotta save up some money for one final cross country trip outta this shit spits/sort some other stuff out ofc.
I might keep y'all in the know about how this goes but hopefully the stars can align and it can all just work out in my favor. I'm thinking of hanging or jumping idk yet.

 

[ctbcat]

not alone, sweet, if it provides any comfort. it's agony living here day after day, especially recently for me. i hope death can bring you the peace you look for, if you do go. <3

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that you find freedom from all the suffering, best of luck in your plans.