ReadyOrNot?
gave up on life long ago
- Feb 13, 2024
- 55
So, I'm thinking about CTB for years now. Atm the urge is very strong (and I can't talk about it with anyone, stupid society)
Drugs have always fascinated me and I have some experience, but no hard drugs. I consumed tons of Kratom but that isn't comparable, I still do. I think if it's your best orgasm x1000, as they say, surely I want to experience that warm feeling before CTB. I doubt it's orgasm x1000 though.
So today the curiosity and urge was so strong I went 2 hours through the places which are known to offer these things. I have nothing to do with criminal activity or the drug scene. But I do have an eye for these street things and don't look like a cop. Very much not like a cop, lol. So it was easy to find someone. I used someone who was begging and paid him for his services.
He went buying 1.0, so he said, from someone just near us. He said he offered good Product but honestly I doubt it. It's very brown and the "vinegar"-like smell is not very strong. At least I know how it smells now. I have smelled it before, a lot times more I would've expected. He probably scammed me big time. Anyway, it will probably do what I want. If I had to guess he had a big chunk of 0.7 and I got some crumbles 0.3 but I'm very bad at guessing the weight of these things. He wanted to show me how to do it but my anxiety was getting very high and I aborted quickly.
I rushed to get him to split it (he bought 2x the amount of money I gave him for more Product), gave him some money and went home. I had anxiety all the way home and was getting paranoid of getting followed by Police. I'm fairly certain no one followed me though. Even if, the authority's in my country don't care too much about so little. Would probably be dropped anyway.
I repackaged it and put it away, I have an appointment tomorrow and I need to think and sleep about it for a few days. But my mind is racing.
I will probably try snorting because this is the most straightforward. If I find some good videos and resources I prefer smoking but there is much to go wrong. I haven't found all the things I want to know yet. I'm afraid to hold my breath for too long for example, or just vaporizing it without feeling it.
The second reason I want to do it is to get a feel for the substance I probably will CTB with. I'm very sceptical of SN, there're plenty of experiences of H OD. They say it was just black and painless until they got Narcaned. I imaging without Narcane it just goes into a peaceful, painless death. I blacked out for other reasons before and it was exactly like that. Just blackness, just nothing. I want to do IV but I need experience for that. And why not have fun until then.
I wrote a lot how I got it today but the reason I open this thread is not so much the consumption. I want to know if anyone else had this thought (Trying H before CBT) too. Have you done it? What do you think of my idea, should I do it, should I not do it? Why, why not?
And of course if you have anything else you think someone should do before CTB I'm very curious to hear it.
Drugs have always fascinated me and I have some experience, but no hard drugs. I consumed tons of Kratom but that isn't comparable, I still do. I think if it's your best orgasm x1000, as they say, surely I want to experience that warm feeling before CTB. I doubt it's orgasm x1000 though.
So today the curiosity and urge was so strong I went 2 hours through the places which are known to offer these things. I have nothing to do with criminal activity or the drug scene. But I do have an eye for these street things and don't look like a cop. Very much not like a cop, lol. So it was easy to find someone. I used someone who was begging and paid him for his services.
He went buying 1.0, so he said, from someone just near us. He said he offered good Product but honestly I doubt it. It's very brown and the "vinegar"-like smell is not very strong. At least I know how it smells now. I have smelled it before, a lot times more I would've expected. He probably scammed me big time. Anyway, it will probably do what I want. If I had to guess he had a big chunk of 0.7 and I got some crumbles 0.3 but I'm very bad at guessing the weight of these things. He wanted to show me how to do it but my anxiety was getting very high and I aborted quickly.
I rushed to get him to split it (he bought 2x the amount of money I gave him for more Product), gave him some money and went home. I had anxiety all the way home and was getting paranoid of getting followed by Police. I'm fairly certain no one followed me though. Even if, the authority's in my country don't care too much about so little. Would probably be dropped anyway.
I repackaged it and put it away, I have an appointment tomorrow and I need to think and sleep about it for a few days. But my mind is racing.
I will probably try snorting because this is the most straightforward. If I find some good videos and resources I prefer smoking but there is much to go wrong. I haven't found all the things I want to know yet. I'm afraid to hold my breath for too long for example, or just vaporizing it without feeling it.
The second reason I want to do it is to get a feel for the substance I probably will CTB with. I'm very sceptical of SN, there're plenty of experiences of H OD. They say it was just black and painless until they got Narcaned. I imaging without Narcane it just goes into a peaceful, painless death. I blacked out for other reasons before and it was exactly like that. Just blackness, just nothing. I want to do IV but I need experience for that. And why not have fun until then.
I wrote a lot how I got it today but the reason I open this thread is not so much the consumption. I want to know if anyone else had this thought (Trying H before CBT) too. Have you done it? What do you think of my idea, should I do it, should I not do it? Why, why not?
And of course if you have anything else you think someone should do before CTB I'm very curious to hear it.
if u decide to try it, good luck!!! enjoy the high for me.
