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sheepgirl

sheepgirl

Student
Aug 11, 2018
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My plan was initially SN, however in NZ you can only buy if you are a school or buisness. I've looked at IC and CCS but I'm worried about it getting stopped at customs. I've been looking at some stuff about Sodium Azide and found that it's not restricted here. Expensive but I can easily purchase it. I've heard SA is extremely painful compared to SN? But as someone who has failed multiple suicide attempts and woken up in ICU a number of times I like the fact that there's no antidote. I would plan to take it and then call emergency services to come and find me before family or my support workers. To me it would be comforting not to be alone as I die but also knowing there's no antidote.
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

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Mar 13, 2020
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Hey, I'm not very familiar with SN /SA but if you decide to go through with SA instead; I believe you would just be setting yourself up for Another possible ICU Nightmare...

I could very well be wrong I'm not quite sure? Just my .02. -

I wish you Nothing but the best in whatever may happen. Please be safe -
 
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CerberusReapers

CerberusReapers

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Dec 19, 2022
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Hey, I'm not very familiar with SN /SA but if you decide to go through with SA instead; I believe you would just be setting yourself up for Another possible ICU Nightmare...

I could very well be wrong I'm not quite sure? Just my .02. -

I wish you Nothing but the best in whatever may happen. Please be safe -
What's SA? And why might it be a nightmare if there is no antidote?
 
stilhavinightmares

stilhavinightmares

Warlock
Oct 13, 2022
753
I definitely see your thought process, but idk if there's enough research out there to be certain that there is no possible way they could "save" you. I hope you're able to figure it out but just be very careful.
 
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Huntfish34

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She stated what SA is in her post... Sodium Azide.. I said I wasn't sure, Idk ? Just my opinion since nobody has really mentioned it as a good way to CTB, Or even if it's a bad way. Not familiar with it too much, just my thoughts/ opinions.
 
theboy

theboy

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Jul 15, 2022
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I have never read anything like this before
Do you like to try CTB several times but get saved? sorry if I misunderstood.

I mean, there's a chance that if you try CTB and call the emergency room, they can save you.
Do you like that feeling?
 
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lionetta12

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Aug 5, 2022
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My plan was initially SN, however in NZ you can only buy if you are a school or buisness. I've looked at IC and CCS but I'm worried about it getting stopped at customs. I've been looking at some stuff about Sodium Azide and found that it's not restricted here. Expensive but I can easily purchase it. I've heard SA is extremely painful compared to SN? But as someone who has failed multiple suicide attempts and woken up in ICU a number of times I like the fact that there's no antidote. I would plan to take it and then call emergency services to come and find me before family or my support workers. To me it would be comforting not to be alone as I die but also knowing there's no antidote.
Be careful with SA as it can explode if it touches metal. Might be a bit painful as well I think to consume it.
 
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rationaltake

rationaltake

I'm rocking it - in another universe
Sep 28, 2021
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I think SA is mentioned in the PPEH?

Edit: Yes it is. Just checked the latest one posted by Rain.
 
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sheepgirl

sheepgirl

Student
Aug 11, 2018
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I have never read anything like this before
Do you like to try CTB several times but get saved? sorry if I misunderstood.

I mean, there's a chance that if you try CTB and call the emergency room, they can save you.
Do you like that feeling
I've survived a few attempts yes. From what I understand and have researched there is no way to save a person from SA? I saw someone say something similar that they would take it and then contact someone as they couldn't be saved but felt they would be more comfortable not being alone whilst dying. I guess for me the idea of not being alone after something like SA is due to fear of what dying will be like, but not wanting to be saved. Almost like if I could have assisted suicide, I would choose to have someone with me. But I've obtained SN which I didn't think I'd be able to get in my country, I would not tell anyone after SN due to the possibility of them saving me with Methylene Blue
 

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