sapphoslastpoem
Student
- Jun 23, 2022
- 107
I have CPTSD and severe anxiety (potentially autism as well, it runs in my family but my parents refused to get me tested for it). I'm only in my early 20's but I've already fucked my whole life up. I live in my car, I'm being bullied in my college classes, I'm paranoid and terrified of everything and everyone because everyone is out to get me. I'm a fucking alien, I don't belong here, I shouldn't exist, I'm not supposed to be taking up space here. I'm a horrible person and I'll only be doing everyone a favor by leaving. Unfortunately, I'll be adding to the statistic, people as mentally screwed as I am are usually gonna CTB just like me, except, none of them are bad people, none of them deserved to feel the way I do, they weren't bad people, I am. I deserve this, I'm the only one who deserves this. I'm the worst person in the world and it was a horrible mistake for me to be brought into this world. In reality, I deserve to be killed in the worst way possible, my death shouldn't be peaceful, I don't even deserve that. My whole life has been pain, it's all I deserve, I should go out painfully.