DeadD
King Idiot
- Mar 28, 2019
- 46
I don't have anyone to talk to about this. I've isolated myself throughly. I'm desperate for relief, validation, anything. I can't talk to the people in my life anymore because I've exhausted them. My relationships have all transitioned into ones where I have to maintain their mental well-being about myself because the pain of my reality is to much for them. Iam in so muchpain I want to die so bad but I know it would hurt the people in my life. I'm currently on a social break with my GF because I make her burnt out. I had been on the phone with her sobbing all day. She won't say anything to me anymore when I cry. No one does. So I hung up, and now I'm alone. Like always. I'm never not alone, even when I have people that care about me. Im completely isolated down to my soul. I'm only alive to make other people happy. I don't k w what to do right now. Trying not to CTB in desperation right now. All I would have to do is snip the main artery on each wrist and it could be over. Like a convent little off button. I could just flip the switch and in an hour or two I could be gone...
its so so fucking hard not to flip the switch
its so so fucking hard not to flip the switch