I'm so sick of being so sad

[wildflowers1996]

I just want it to end already

I want to go to Peru. But I don't speak Spanish. And it's scary going alone. I want to buy N and take it back to the UK. But I'm so scared I'll get caught.

I can't bear to hurt my family but I can't bear being alive I can't win

 

[goodoldnoname923]

Have you tried or considered getting N through the DW i'm not fully sure how accessible it would be but it definitely saves you travelling abroad or perhaps passing in paru itself could be more convenient for you cuts out the middle man sorta speak

 

[wildflowers1996]

I don't think it's possible that way unfortunately :( I imagine other people would have mentioned doing it if it were possible. I imagine it's just scams :(
I don't want to ctb in Peru for my family's sake :(

 

[Timothy7dff]

I can't bear to hurt my family but I can't bear being alive I can't win

It's agonizing. Don't some European countries have legal assisted suicide?

 

[wildflowers1996]

They do but I don't think they will help me

I just can't stop crying and crying and crying constantly I need for this to end I'm in so much pain

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so incredibly cruel and horrible to me how people cannot just have the option to reliably die in peace. I really wish that Nembutal is accessible, it'd prevent so much meaningless and unnecessary suffering. But anyway I wish you the best.