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Roseate
Specialist
- Mar 24, 2021
- 346
I keep faking it. I keep trying. I am even being positive and nothing is working. It's just getting worse. I get hopeful then I'm let down. I have no one to talk to about it. I am so alone and for the first time ever I don't want to be alone. I am tired of being alone, of starting over, I'm so tired of breathing why won't it stop? Why won't it fucking stop???!! I am tired of crying every goddamn fucking day. I am just confused. I am questioning everything. I am losing my fucking mind. I am just dying but I'm still here. Idk why. Idk why I keep going through these pains. Idk why the pain wont stop. Why can't I be happy like those some of those people who can just float with happiness? Why can't I have something.. something or someone that stays?! I just want to smile, I just want to be happy… and if I can't have that, why can't I just fucking die? Why do I have to go through all this planning just for fucking peace that I can't fucking feel on this fucking earth anyways? There's just no fucking light at the end of this. I just want to die already.