I’m so lonely

[jbn0070]

I work 3 part time jobs to make myself feel less lonely because I have no friends. When I come home, the loneliness hits me hard and my mom always finds a way to pick a fight with me. All I need is one person that truly cares about me. I didn't have a single best friend for my whole life and the only person that truly cared about me is my ex from few years ago. She accepted me the way how I am and truly loved me but I treated her like shit and we ended up breaking up. I miss her so much and feel so sorry but now she looks at me like I'm some kind of psychopath. I really love human interactions but I simply can't make friends because I lack social skills and I'm too insecure about myself. I don't think I'm a good human being either and I feel like I'm useless to society. I'm desperate for SN or any other methods that doesn't contain severe pain. I wanted to and have attempted suicide since I am 8 but I'm too scared. I will never be able to do it without SN but I can't find it anywhere. If this keeps going on I think I will go insane. Please don't write hate comments my feelings get hurt easily

 

[venomousSSërpent74]

Suicide isn't easy and that's impressive having 3 jobs I quit mine a long time ago and i'd go more in depth with my message but I have no energy to do so I'm here to talk if you need/want to I hope that being on this site helps you feel more heard and I wish you the best on finding methods that work for you.

 

[jbn0070]

Suicide isn't easy and that's impressive having 3 jobs I quit mine a long time ago and i'd go more in depth with my message but I have no energy to do so I'm here to talk if you need/want to I hope that being on this site helps you feel more heard and I wish you the best on finding methods that work for you.

Thank you I appreciate it

 

[venomousSSërpent74]

Thank you I appreciate it

no problem

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. When you have a few more posts you can also use the chat and PM here.

 

[SnakesButNoLadder]

Three jobs! And here I was blaming the immigrants. Just kidding

I hope you find a way out that isn't suicide. Living with a parent always breathing down your neck is hard, if you find a way out I'm sure things will start looking up.

 

[jbn0070]

I'm sorry you have to go through this. When you have a few more posts you can also use the chat and PM here.

Thank you

Three jobs! And here I was blaming the immigrants. Just kidding

I hope you find a way out that isn't suicide. Living with a parent always breathing down your neck is hard, if you find a way out I'm sure things will start looking up.

Lmao I mean I technically am an immigrant in Canada but I'm working part time jobs in my home country(S.Korea) right now. I would never be able to manage 3 jobs in Canada since I have to study for uni.

Thank you and appreciate it

 

[wildflowers1996]

I'm so sorry you're in so much pain </3
can I ask what happened with your ex? you can PM me if you prefer