Siamese Believe
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- Dec 8, 2025
- 30
For years I would go to the top of a cliff, standing right at the very edge, trying to get the courage to jump.
Luckily I never got the courage. I'd back out and sit there, looking at the ground far down below. Part of me knew I would never do it. Would damn near rather bite my own tongue off and choke on my blood over doing that, I also have a mighty fear of heights.
The cliff was about 200+ ft off the ground. I don't remember the exact height but I think it was above 100 ft for sure. There was a spot where I could fall down onto jagged rocks.
I don't like jumping as a method though, never did. For one it's awfully terrifying, Far scarier than seeing my own blood. But at the time it seemed like it was my only option. And it's at least quick.
I also hike recreationally so it's normal for me to hike mountains without intent to jump so the mountain was easily accessible to me, nobody would immediately suspect suicide because nature is my passion. I've long since explored better methods.
It's not that jumping isn't effective, but you seriously need guts for that. And I feel like the damage is gonna far worse than other methods if you survived. It's not a risk I wanted to take. If I was gonna go with a death that plays into my greatest fear, then I at least wanted a guaranteed death.
Although I'm pretty sure jumping off a skyscraper onto concrete with nothing to break your fall is guaranteed death as your head will pop like a melon.
Luckily I never got the courage. I'd back out and sit there, looking at the ground far down below. Part of me knew I would never do it. Would damn near rather bite my own tongue off and choke on my blood over doing that, I also have a mighty fear of heights.
The cliff was about 200+ ft off the ground. I don't remember the exact height but I think it was above 100 ft for sure. There was a spot where I could fall down onto jagged rocks.
I don't like jumping as a method though, never did. For one it's awfully terrifying, Far scarier than seeing my own blood. But at the time it seemed like it was my only option. And it's at least quick.
I also hike recreationally so it's normal for me to hike mountains without intent to jump so the mountain was easily accessible to me, nobody would immediately suspect suicide because nature is my passion. I've long since explored better methods.
It's not that jumping isn't effective, but you seriously need guts for that. And I feel like the damage is gonna far worse than other methods if you survived. It's not a risk I wanted to take. If I was gonna go with a death that plays into my greatest fear, then I at least wanted a guaranteed death.
Although I'm pretty sure jumping off a skyscraper onto concrete with nothing to break your fall is guaranteed death as your head will pop like a melon.
