Venting I'm so frustrated that none of my attempts have worked.

[SHThrowAway213]

I'm 24. My birthday was 2 days ago.
My first attempt was when I was 12, and I'm still stuck here, alive.
I've had 8 attempts, the most recent one a few months ago, around 3 months ago.
Why am I still stuck here?
I have PTSD, BPD, Depression and Psychosis. I also have dyspraxia and I might be autistic. Alcoholic too.
I was told yesterday that they basicly don't know what to do, didn't refer me for therapy and they just reffered me to some self-help bullshit.
The NHS has given up on me it seems like, I've been in and out of the service since I was 16.
And I'm still stuck here.
I give up

 

[Ruffian]

I'm 24. My birthday was 2 days ago.
My first attempt was when I was 12, and I'm still stuck here, alive.
I've had 8 attempts, the most recent one a few months ago, around 3 months ago.
Why am I still stuck here?
I have PTSD, BPD, Depression and Psychosis. I also have dyspraxia and I might be autistic. Alcoholic too.
I was told yesterday that they basicly don't know what to do, didn't refer me for therapy and they just reffered me to some self-help bullshit.
The NHS has given up on me it seems like, I've been in and out of the service since I was 16.
And I'm still stuck here.
I give up

I'm sorry for what you're going through. I know how disappointing failed attempts are. I don't want to be here either, and I've made a lot of attempts. I wish I could say something more helpful, but Im in the same boat. I've given up on life and death.