I'm sick of waking up

[LossOfWill]

the thing that gives me the most comfort is that I have the option to ctb. If that's taken away I would be even more miserable.. why don't people understand that? I want out.

 

[Sherri]

Same, the moment I open my window blinds I just sigh and say to myself, another day ahead. It's so hard to carry on when my soul is asking me to leave this flesh and bone body.

 

[Ramirez]

I am right there with yall. had to have a bottle of wine before breakfast cuz waking up in this hell is pure terror.

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

So true.
There was a moment several months ago when my husband found my SN and flushed it down the toilet. I was livid and was immediately thrown into a deeper fit of depression. Knowing my exit is available whenever I'm ready is the most comforting thought I have.

 

[itsallover]

And the only comfort I have is going to sleep to leave this nightmare of a life even for a little bit. That's all death is just eternal sleep.

 

[Superdeterminist]

I too, am sick of waking up

 

[Chemicalcastration20]

As soon as I realise I'm awake.. It dawns on me that im still alive and I have to somehow get through another day of this living hell. I really deserve to be at rest.. Iv been a good person throughout my life! this pain is not in any way fair.

In my opinion If someone does not wish to live anymore they should have the right to be put to sleep, Its like some sort of sick game.. You either ctb which is so difficult or carry on living in pure mental torture.

 

[justsad&done]

Waking up is horrible. The reality of my life hits me immediately and I feel completely crushed. I am so tired of getting up and facing the day over and over again.

 

[Weary Soul]

"I'm sick of waking up"​

Me too! I so wish I would die in my sleep, but it seems that my body (and SI), is not on board and I am reminded of this every, single morning.

 

[Spitfire]

the thing that gives me the most comfort is that I have the option to ctb. If that's taken away I would be even more miserable.. why don't people understand that? I want out.

It feels the same for me. I allow myself to have several on-hand options #1, #2, and #3 to be readily available options.

I keep waking up.

 

[Meditation guide]

Imagine just as you are starting to wake up you are aware of internal tremors which feel as if you are in an earthquake, or all your insides are shaking violently. It's hell. Some days it continues for hours. I can feel the tremors starting up just as I'm waking up.
I look forward to the time I never wake up again. It's all I have to look forward to.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I normally am but tomorrow I will be happy knowing my plan is basically just to go to the shop to get vodka then watch depressing films all day and night with curtains closed.

 

[PeacefulDarkness]

I feel the same

 

[issyishere]

Wish I had this problem. I can't sleep lately