im scared

[happy1234]

im scared that this depression has gone too far and i will never regain normal brain function. i feel like after years and years of mental neglect and not seeking help has deteriorated me to a point of no return. does anyone else feel the same?

 

[bed]

yeah, my brain feels so fucked, I don't even have the words to describe it anymore. The brain fog sure as hell doesn't help either.

 

[summers]

@happy1234 and @Bed are you referring to a cognitive decline (like loss of the ability to solve problems or difficulty with reading comprehension) or decline in social/coping skills? Asking because cognitive decline can certainly be reversed by simply practicing what you are struggling with. Sorry if this is coming across as self-help(ish). But there was a point where I lost some of my social skills due to remote work, living alone, not going out as much. I had to active seek out situations where I spoke to strangers, engaged colleagues in conversation, and just socialized more. It did work.

Similarly, I have lost some of my math knowledge due to lack of use over the years. I could probably get it back, but I don't know if I would ever be at the same level I was in graduate school.

 

[bed]

@happy1234 and @Bed are you referring to a cognitive decline (like loss of the ability to solve problems or difficulty with reading comprehension) or decline in social/coping skills? Asking because cognitive decline can certainly be reversed by simply practicing what you are struggling with. Sorry if this is coming across as self-help(ish). But there was a point where I lost some of my social skills due to remote work, living alone, not going out as much. I had to active seek out situations where I spoke to strangers, engaged colleagues in conversation, and just socialized more. It did work.

Similarly, I have lost some of my math knowledge due to lack of use over the years. I could probably get it back, but I don't know if I would ever be at the same level I was in graduate school.

no worries, it didn't come off that way. For the most part for me, I think it's a decline in social/coping skills but i believe my fibromyalgia makes it worse on top of depression/anxiety due to brain fog and getting things mixed up.

I do sometimes spell out a word that I don't mean to though, that is similarly spelt to the word i'm thinking of.

I assume it's just a lack of social interaction and being on the internet all day now, just melting my brain to cope until i ctb.

 

[happy1234]

@happy1234 and @Bed are you referring to a cognitive decline (like loss of the ability to solve problems or difficulty with reading comprehension) or decline in social/coping skills? Asking because cognitive decline can certainly be reversed by simply practicing what you are struggling with. Sorry if this is coming across as self-help(ish). But there was a point where I lost some of my social skills due to remote work, living alone, not going out as much. I had to active seek out situations where I spoke to strangers, engaged colleagues in conversation, and just socialized more. It did work.

Similarly, I have lost some of my math knowledge due to lack of use over the years. I could probably get it back, but I don't know if I would ever be at the same level I was in graduate school

yea in addition to social skills i have noticed difficulty in doing tasks such as reading and math. i cannot handle even one course.

 

[summers]

yea in addition to social skills i have noticed difficulty in doing tasks such as reading and math. i cannot handle even one course.

What about just reading a book that interests you? Start off slow and make sure you understand the story. Have your phone handy to define words you don't know.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to suffer like this. It can be horrible being trapped in this human body. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.