Venting I’m scared I won’t ever get the courage to do it

[ForsakenShadow]

All my life I've never amounted to anything, never meant anything, or made a difference… I was just there. I'm so fucking lonely and it just drains all my energy. But I have to pick myself back up again every time, for what? Just to get knocked back down? There's no end in sight. I'm sitting here in my dorm with a shit ton of stuff I need to do but I don't have the energy for any of it. I can't do this on my ownunder the bed is my SN and AE, all I have to do is book a hotel and I can be free from it all… but I can't bring myself to do it. I'm hoping one day I'll just snap and get it done but deep down I know that's not gonna happen. I'm so scared, wish I had someone here for me :/

 

[Surai]

I also fear that life will continue to punish us and Ill never be able to get close to a ledge because of SI. Hopefully one day Ill be able to free my mind to the point of freeing myself.
I also fear that life will continue to punish us and we will never be able to get close to a ledge because of SI. Hopefully one day we'll be able to free our minds to the point of freeing ourselves.