Venting I'm really losing it again

[Throwaway478953b]

Am I full of hate or full of love?
Completely alone or everyone has my back?


I have no idea anymore.
So many topics....the opposites of them...I am one moment one, one moment the opposite. I don't even know which one it is.

It feels like fire and water trying to mix. It's so bad. Hahahhahahhahah

I'm so lost :)

 

[Sharethepain]

Sounds like BPD to me, welcome aboard, its a hellish ride.

 

[Throwaway478953b]

Sounds like BPD to me, welcome aboard, its a hellish ride.

It doesn't matter what humans think of me.

I have no disorder. There is a perfectly logical reason to everything.

 

[Sharethepain]

It doesn't matter what humans think of me.

I have no disorder. There is a perfectly logical reason to everything.

Yeah but mental disorders mess up even your rationality, it goes so deep that you dont know about it until someone points it out and you can connect all the little dots.