I just got of a short text convo with my brother. He abused me when we were little, and years ago I brought it up to him so he could have a chance to apologize, but instead he became defensive. But not just defensive; he was angry. He felt like I victimized him by calling him an abuser. But I chose to move forward anyway. For the past few years, we've gotten into tense disagreements over his lack of empathy and disregard for my sensitivities and emotions, period. I don't understand him, and he doesn't understand me. It's like he's one of those people who hates being called bad words but doesn't care to stop doing the bad things.
I've posted before about my situation with my mother and late dog -- seen in my post history.
My mother was talking about getting a puppy version of our late dog and naming them the same name. Disgusting.
The first time I told him, he reacted appropriately.
But today...
I saw that my sister who also had a dog pass had just gotten a new puppy that she gave her late dog's name to. I was appalled. Because my mother had been talking to her about doing this, I am now afraid that it will happen. I texted my brother saying this if it happens, then I will just leave and be homeless. I wouldn't be able to stand that.
He just told me to get over it and get an apartment.
Like I didn't tell him days ago that I was filing for bankruptcy.
That set me off, and now we're both mad an insulting each other. He's just so mean.
I only had him and my friend from treatment. My friend is right wing but not a Trumpet; I'm a progressive socialist. We became close because we're very much alike in personality. But these ideological differences have kept us apart for over a year, so we just update each other a few times a year. I can't take him anymore. Not now that I'm at my lowest and emptiest. My father, my kitten, my dog... Everyone I lived for all my life is gone.
Now I'm alone.
I can't dupe myself this time. LIke, "Oh, I can just offload some of the top of my problems on them. Just so I don't overflow. They don't want to hear all the deep stuff."
There's no one left. I'm alone.
I've posted before about my situation with my mother and late dog -- seen in my post history.
My mother was talking about getting a puppy version of our late dog and naming them the same name. Disgusting.
The first time I told him, he reacted appropriately.
But today...
I saw that my sister who also had a dog pass had just gotten a new puppy that she gave her late dog's name to. I was appalled. Because my mother had been talking to her about doing this, I am now afraid that it will happen. I texted my brother saying this if it happens, then I will just leave and be homeless. I wouldn't be able to stand that.
He just told me to get over it and get an apartment.
Like I didn't tell him days ago that I was filing for bankruptcy.
That set me off, and now we're both mad an insulting each other. He's just so mean.
I only had him and my friend from treatment. My friend is right wing but not a Trumpet; I'm a progressive socialist. We became close because we're very much alike in personality. But these ideological differences have kept us apart for over a year, so we just update each other a few times a year. I can't take him anymore. Not now that I'm at my lowest and emptiest. My father, my kitten, my dog... Everyone I lived for all my life is gone.
Now I'm alone.
I can't dupe myself this time. LIke, "Oh, I can just offload some of the top of my problems on them. Just so I don't overflow. They don't want to hear all the deep stuff."
There's no one left. I'm alone.
