I’m ready to go...I just don’t want it to hurt

[Thelastanon24]

've been trying to find an older generator to die via carbon monoxide poisoning. I read about Conrad Roy (the texting suicide case) using one in his truck to effectively commit suicide. If I have no luck with locating a generator, I bought everything necessary to run the fumes from my exhaust pipe into my truck. My only worry is that I have a 2011 Silverado and I don't know if it's too new to get the job done. If it is, would removing the catalytic converter help? I could do that easily but I'm currently in a full arm sling on my dominant hand and feel like if I wait, I'll pink out and continue my miserable existence.

Im also concerned about the possible dangers that removing the CC entails.

I have access to my dads glock 380 and my ex girlfriends 9mm. I can fire the 380 with my left hand but then I'm scared it's not a large enough caliber to be fatal, quickly. I think I'd get too much recoil from the 9mm. My only benefit is that I know no one would find me and I'd have adequate time to bleed out. Suggested ammo would be appreciated.

 

[ProhibereDolor]

Doesn't matter what type of vehicle it is other than if it's internal combustion or electric. And being a truck then that makes it easier. You don't really need to remove the catalytic converter for it to sashay you off this planet. Along with CO you will be breathing unburned fuel vapors, particulates, and some other gasses. Your body is going to go haywire from lack of oxygen, so be prepared for that. But people who ctb in a vehicle with exhaust always look horrible when found. At least from what I've seen. Go to lostallhope.com it is listed there. It's a good website. I actually found this site through that one.

Best wishes

 

[Thelastanon24]

Doesn't matter what type of vehicle it is other than if it's internal combustion or electric. And being a truck then that makes it easier. You don't really need to remove the catalytic converter for it to sashay you off this planet. Along with CO you will be breathing unburned fuel vapors, particulates, and some other gasses. Your body is going to go haywire from lack of oxygen, so be prepared for that. But people who ctb in a vehicle with exhaust always look horrible when found. At least from what I've seen. Go to lostallhope.com it is listed there. It's a good website. I actually found this site through that one.

Best wishes

Thank you! I actually found this site through lostallhope as well. I have a bunch of oxycodone from a recent surgery and hope to pass out before I pass out for good.

 

[Kokobushi_bae26]

Actually it does matter very much what kind of vehicle it is and a 2011 truck is not going to work. A simple google search would've told you that.

 

[Righttodie]

Just going to give you a general thought here.

Always expect there to be some pain.
So that it gives your brain a way to be prepared to face if there is any.

But go with expecting no pain, when you encounter it, the shock of it will cause more distress.

It's a basic psychological mechanism.

 

[cornflowerblue]

've been trying to find an older generator to die via carbon monoxide poisoning. I read about Conrad Roy (the texting suicide case) using one in his truck to effectively commit suicide. If I have no luck with locating a generator, I bought everything necessary to run the fumes from my exhaust pipe into my truck. My only worry is that I have a 2011 Silverado and I don't know if it's too new to get the job done. If it is, would removing the catalytic converter help? I could do that easily but I'm currently in a full arm sling on my dominant hand and feel like if I wait, I'll pink out and continue my miserable existence.

Im also concerned about the possible dangers that removing the CC entails.

I have access to my dads glock 380 and my ex girlfriends 9mm. I can fire the 380 with my left hand but then I'm scared it's not a large enough caliber to be fatal, quickly. I think I'd get too much recoil from the 9mm. My only benefit is that I know no one would find me and I'd have adequate time to bleed out. Suggested ammo would be appreciated.

I don't know much about carbon monoxide other than the fact that it can kill people who find you, and it can leave you brain damaged but alive.

Look up gun stats. The success rate is scarily low. There's way too many stories of people twitching a tiny tiny bit at the last minute and blowing their face off or blowing out a chunk of brain but surviving. You'd be surprised by what people can live through, even if it takes a while to be found. Even with lethal gunshots, a lot of em are very very very very far from quick or painless.

Plus I know lots of people aren't bothered by this and maybe you also wouldn't be, but seeing a gun death will definitely cause horrible psychological trauma for anyone who finds you or sees photos and even if you're found by cops or a stranger, your "next of kin" will be forced to see what's left of you, in order to confirm your identity for the death certificate.

CTB will cause extreme psychological damage to your gf and any friends, family, current or former classmates/coworkers, etc no matter how you do it, but the methods you picked will really magnify those effects, either by physically harming others with the CO, or by seeing a gunshot wound, then also financial harm for the cleanup and funeral. And that's assuming you even die. If you survive, there will be all of that same trauma and harm plus whatever goes along with whatever's left of you, like medical care costs, watching you in a coma for a decade, or being forced to medically and financially support you going forward.

Take some more time to think this through and figure out what's really important to you. I know being alive is shitty but time will pass no matter what so IMO it's better to hang on for a few more weeks at least if that would give you time to plan a less harmful CTB

 

[TimeToDie]

Look up gun stats. The success rate is scarily low.

Every method shows a scarily low success rate because most methods are poorly executed. Most gun suicides involve handguns -- which are all vastly less powerful than a shotgun -- and the most common caliber is .22LR which is as wimpy as it gets. To boost failures further you have folks who shoot themselves in the chest or abdomen.

 

[cornflowerblue]

Every method shows a scarily low success rate because most methods are poorly executed. Most gun suicides involve handguns -- which are all vastly less powerful than a shotgun -- and the most common caliber is .22LR which is as wimpy as it gets. To boost failures further you have folks who shoot themselves in the chest or abdomen.

Didn't OP mention two handguns? Glock and 9mm? I don't know much about guns so I could be wrong but that's what I thought those are

 

[TimeToDie]

Didn't OP mention two handguns? Glock and 9mm? I don't know much about guns so I could be wrong but that's what I thought those are

Yes, what he mentioned are handguns. .380 ACP is used in tiny handguns that are designed for concealed carry.

 

[cornflowerblue]

Yes, what he mentioned are handguns. .380 ACP is used in tiny handguns that are designed for concealed carry.

It also sounded like OP would be stealing the gun, presumably isn't an experienced shooter (maybe hasn't ever shot a gun?) given the question about ammo, and definitely that the element of research is... lacking, which could lead to "Hollywood aim". The post title is that they don't want pain, but given all of those factors my gut instinct is that the chance of certain death wouldn't be as high as OP is looking for, and the chance of quick or painless would be even lower.

 

[TimeToDie]

It also sounded like OP would be stealing the gun, presumably isn't an experienced shooter (maybe hasn't ever shot a gun?) given the question about ammo...

I'm not sure that shooting experience matters much. I've fired tens of thousands of rounds though I don't know how hitting a bullseye at 25 yards prepares me for blowing my head off. As for ammo, one can buy hollow points without knowing much, and here's an example: https://www.buffalobore.com/index.php?l=product_detail&p=118 A .380 & 9mm bullet are the same diameter -- .355 caliber. The 9mm is just heavier and faster so it should penetrate deeper. I notice that none of the firearms discussions I've read thus far mention the existence of +P and +P+ ammo which is loaded to higher pressure to produce higher velocity.

 

[Roger]

.380 ACP is known in Europe as 9mm Short, or 9x17 mm.

 

[TimeToDie]

.380 ACP is known in Europe as 9mm Short, or 9x17 mm.

And a 9mm Luger is 9x19. I've read that .380 is used by cops in Europe, even if Americans think it's too weak and is something only to be used when you absolutely have to because the gun is ridiculously tiny. When holding a Ruger LCP .380 my index finger sticks out past the muzzle! Such guns have become wildly popular in the last decade, since they can be concealed even when wearing shorts & a t-shirt.

 

[Thelastanon24]

It also sounded like OP would be stealing the gun, presumably isn't an experienced shooter (maybe hasn't ever shot a gun?) given the question about ammo, and definitely that the element of research is... lacking, which could lead to "Hollywood aim". The post title is that they don't want pain, but given all of those factors my gut instinct is that the chance of certain death wouldn't be as high as OP is looking for, and the chance of quick or painless would be even lower.

Definitely not stealing any firearms and have enough experience with guns to blow my brains out at least. I know there will be SOME pain but I just want the least painful method that I can get done in the next few days

 

[Pistolero114]

've been trying to find an older generator to die via carbon monoxide poisoning. I read about Conrad Roy (the texting suicide case) using one in his truck to effectively commit suicide. If I have no luck with locating a generator, I bought everything necessary to run the fumes from my exhaust pipe into my truck. My only worry is that I have a 2011 Silverado and I don't know if it's too new to get the job done. If it is, would removing the catalytic converter help? I could do that easily but I'm currently in a full arm sling on my dominant hand and feel like if I wait, I'll pink out and continue my miserable existence.

Im also concerned about the possible dangers that removing the CC entails.

I have access to my dads glock 380 and my ex girlfriends 9mm. I can fire the 380 with my left hand but then I'm scared it's not a large enough caliber to be fatal, quickly. I think I'd get too much recoil from the 9mm. My only benefit is that I know no one would find me and I'd have adequate time to bleed out. Suggested ammo would be appreciated.


If you can still find them Winchester Black Talons are an extremely effective round when used against organic tissue. I haven't seen any in years but I here might be someone who has a box they're willing to part with. Short of a 12 gauge tactical shotgun (16 inch barrel) with double aught buckshot that's all I can think of. Unless you want to try the Frangible rounds. They're solid projectiles but when they meet the resistance of anything organic they fragment; hence the term "Frangible". Once upon a time; a long time ago, I was an armorer in a previous life. Good luck with your mission; however you decide.

 

[spanishguy22]

I read recoil is a nonissue when shooting yourself as it goes after the shot is fired, so as long as you flinch recoil doesnt matter. Im not sure whether to believe this still and id like to know because i want a shotgun which has tons of recoil...

 

[not_a_robot]

Every method shows a scarily low success rate because most methods are poorly executed. Most gun suicides involve handguns -- which are all vastly less powerful than a shotgun -- and the most common caliber is .22LR which is as wimpy as it gets. To boost failures further you have folks who shoot themselves in the chest or abdomen.

That's not a bad shot if they can destroy the cardiopulmonary artery, though. Should ctb in a few minutes, anyway.

 

[Joannf]

've been trying to find an older generator to die via carbon monoxide poisoning. I read about Conrad Roy (the texting suicide case) using one in his truck to effectively commit suicide. If I have no luck with locating a generator, I bought everything necessary to run the fumes from my exhaust pipe into my truck. My only worry is that I have a 2011 Silverado and I don't know if it's too new to get the job done. If it is, would removing the catalytic converter help? I could do that easily but I'm currently in a full arm sling on my dominant hand and feel like if I wait, I'll pink out and continue my miserable existence.

Im also concerned about the possible dangers that removing the CC entails.

I have access to my dads glock 380 and my ex girlfriends 9mm. I can fire the 380 with my left hand but then I'm scared it's not a large enough caliber to be fatal, quickly. I think I'd get too much recoil from the 9mm. My only benefit is that I know no one would find me and I'd have adequate time to bleed out. Suggested ammo would be appreciated.

1) you get small generators in any hardware store, from $ 89 to 249, it doesn't matter which - and why would you want an older one.
2) Forget the exhaust method if you don't have a 1980s or earlier car.
3) If you have a nine, use silver tips, they're a good compromise between full jacket and hollow tip.
You don't need to be afraid of recoil - in pistols, recoil isn't so bad - but in this case the bullet should already have cut off your medulla when that happens.
You will have to hold the gun upside down and push the trigger with your thumb so as not to angle the thing sideways in the last moment.
Nines have a large barrel assembly that will fill your mouth - not a good feeling, a revolver would be best.
Capisce ?