I'm not meant to be with someone.

[kosmischerunfall]

Everyone i had and cared for left me.
Blocking me in social media, ghosting me, telling me it's not me it's them.

I never was important to someone, I wish I had friends and a husband instead of my family.

I hate living with my siblings and my mother.

It's all fucking their fault.

Giving me this stupid genes making me ugly and small.

I'm just a catalyst for every human being on this planet, I'm not meant to have a happy ending, I'm doing this to myself, but I can't stop.
Living in misery is all I've ever known.
Love is not real and just a primitive instinct based on a choice we make, it's not something from god.
I want to love someone but i am so scared, I want to be touched, but i am so scared.

Why can't i fucking be normal functioning human being and woman?
I'm a small girl that always whines about everything.
I'm too weak for this world too sensitive, words will hurt me.
I feel too much.
I think too much.
And I hurt too much.

I am a clown in a world that's the circus.
Everybody, the crowd is laughing at me.
I'm alone.

 

[TBONTB]

Hey, you are important here. Haha...we're the circus you are looking for!

You've got a lot of big thoughts and feelings there, it's certainly overwhelming. Are you wishing you could make more effective relationships?

 

[kosmischerunfall]

Hey, you are important here. Haha...we're the circus you are looking for!

You've got a lot of big thoughts and feelings there, it's certainly overwhelming. Are you wishing you could make more effective relationships?

Yes, but i hate my mind, it will never work.
I will ctb with night night method and will feel peace forever

 

[MyShadow]

Everyone i had and cared for left me.
Blocking me in social media, ghosting me, telling me it's not me it's them.

I never was important to someone, I wish I had friends and a husband instead of my family.

I hate living with my siblings and my mother.

It's all fucking their fault.

Giving me this stupid genes making me ugly and small.

I'm just a catalyst for every human being on this planet, I'm not meant to have a happy ending, I'm doing this to myself, but I can't stop.
Living in misery is all I've ever known.
Love is not real and just a primitive instinct based on a choice we make, it's not something from god.
I want to love someone but i am so scared, I want to be touched, but i am so scared.

Why can't i fucking be normal functioning human being and woman?
I'm a small girl that always whines about everything.
I'm too weak for this world too sensitive, words will hurt me.
I feel too much.
I think too much.
And I hurt too much.

I am a clown in a world that's the circus.
Everybody, the crowd is laughing at me.
I'm alone.

Feeling all of these feelings. It's hard waking up alone every day. I gave her everything and it was not enough. The lies and the betrayals cut me to the bone. I felt everything and the pain lingers.
I am sorry that you are experiencing this too.

 

[kosmischerunfall]

Feeling all of these feelings. It's hard waking up alone every day. I gave her everything and it was not enough. The lies and the betrayals cut me to the bone. I felt everything and the pain lingers.
I am sorry that you are experiencing this too.

I think we or me were born into the wrong world, where we are pure and all other are npcs and devils incapable of empathy and love..

 

[MyShadow]

I think we or me were born into the wrong world, where we are pure and all other are npcs and devils incapable of empathy and love..

Humans have devolved into creatures that are worse than the lowest primates. We've lost our humanity, our empathy and our ability to love properly.

 

[Off_Switch]

I wonder how they will feel when you are gone. I hope it eats them to the core.