Venting I'm not made for life

[Zanmato]

Title say everything.
I think some of you can already understand.
I'm kinda trying now, "living", also with a job, but I know that I'm not that good at it.
I try to act normally, but I can see I'm way more different from the others.
I'm kinda bad in everything, even if I try.
I really tried to improve, to be better in these months, but nothing really changed.
This sucks.

 

[nihilistic_dragon]

I can relate. I wasn't cut out for this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I also see myself as not meant for any of this and I understand feeling so tired of suffering in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[star.trip]

I think the same as you. honestly I'm not made for life. I'm very good at studying, I have always been good at it because it was the only place where I could be happy (considering my childhood and adolescence). But life is not only about studying, my lack of emotional intelligence, not being able to see people's intentions, not accepting my sexuality, etc. well, right now life is overcoming me. Sometimes I ask myself what am I doing living when I know I don't know how to live, why praise something that has no future (I am referring to myself and my life).

There are days when positive ideas come to me to continue but then reality comes and reminds me of my inabilities. It's sad and embarrassing because it makes me feel worse than I did in the beginning. so life is not for me.

 

[Zanmato]

I think the same as you. honestly I'm not made for life. I'm very good at studying, I have always been good at it because it was the only place where I could be happy

Interesting, I think I can understand you here!
I had this feeling around 10/11 years ago, when I went back to school, to finish my studies.
Also, when some years ago I tried to improved my english and when, one year ago, I decided to starting to learn japanese.
I kinda feel good when I focus on studying.
I'm not doing it everyday or everyweek, but it's nice!
I think it's nice distraction from everything, after all

 

[pariah80]

I was never meant to be here either. I totally understand where you're coming from. I don't 'human' right. I'm tired of feeling like everything I do is wrong, or I'm in trouble for something all the time. I'm so ready to leave this life. I can't wait until I do.