Im not just depressed my reason for ctb is legal troubles related. Rant/vent

[heyismeman]

Yea I'm going to court for something very serious and it's looking like a year or longer process. For me it's just better to bounce rn, I have no regrets or anything, depression I have always been and since I was 12 one of the most comforting thoughts was suicide, so, now is just the right time if that makes sense. Instead of letting my parents spend tens of thousands for lawyer fees, and live not knowing if in a year I'll have to go to jail and spend years of my life trapped in a maze, I don't think so. It was a victimless crime but don't ask what it was as I won't say anything to not further incriminate myself etc, pls dont even try if anyone even cares enough to read this. But is anyone else in a similar situation, like I'm all set the stars have aligned I'm out kinda deal. Life was HORRIBLE from start to finish (abusive relatives (not parents) that mentally fucked me up) have never been in love and think I'm not capable of it (besides love for close family) could never become wealthy even though I chased it, always feel delirization, social anxiety, depression etc. So now that I truly hit the wall, I want out, I don't care for "things can become better bla bla bla bla" because I don't believe it for a minute as I know myself.

 

[just_a_guy]

I'm in a similar situation, month 7 of my legal battle for something that wasn't intentional and the "victim" who acted irresponsibly (and illegally) now stands to benefit financially from me. It sucks because I'm already not doing great financially.

I don't know what to say to you, it sucks, but I'm hoping that it will clear up and I can get my life back on track. You have to make the decision on whether there's something worth it waiting for you at the end of this fight, or if you're ready to call it. Whatever you decide, good luck to you, I hope you find some peace