I’m mad that all I can think of to put in my note is my ex

[Ghost2211]

A lot of my reasons to ctb do involve my disability and chronic health issues, but all I can think of is he is what pushed me over the edge. He took away my future, financial security, broke my heart, and tore our family apart. All because he couldn't forgive me for going into a deep depression that was triggered by having his baby and bs with him. I'm so hurt and angry that he moved on and got a new gf not even a month after leaving me, and -if- we were to ever fix it he wouldn't want to leave her.

I sent him to stay with his parents for a week because watching him date, and tell me why should I care hes not with me anyway was making me want to impulse ctb. I was still so in love with him, and would have forgiven everything, Time away from him has cleared my mind and heart, and now I'm just angry. I don't miss him I just want financial security for the kids.

I need to work through this anger before I ctb. I don't want my death to be about someone that doesn't love me the way life has.

 

[Lostandfound7]

It's so heartbreaking when u love someone n don't feel it's reciprocated. I just found out my husband of 14 yrs was having an affair for a few months.I am totally devasted,to put it lightly.when I told him a few days ago that I was tired of living n wanted to "go". He begged me to not do that over his wickedness n that he wasn't worth it. I agree but heartache can b so crippling, esp combined with other things in life..I'm hear for u n always available if u wanna pm me..heartache is a dumm b*@ch..sending u love Honey

 

[Ghost2211]

It's so heartbreaking when u love someone n don't feel it's reciprocated. I just found out my husband of 14 yrs was having an affair for a few months.I am totally devasted,to put it lightly.when I told him a few days ago that I was tired of living n wanted to "go". He begged me to not do that over his wickedness n that he wasn't worth it. I agree but heartache can b so crippling, esp combined with other things in life..I'm hear for u n always available if u wanna pm me..heartache is a dumm b*@ch..sending u love Honey

I'm sorry you're going through this as well. Isn't it awesome how we are only worth something when we want to die.....

 

[Lostandfound7]

Sad..but he's absolutely right, hes so not worth it but it's a combo of many things...Funny how someone else can push u over the edge without even knowing...

 

[Lorntroubles]

Write whatever you want and feel. At another time, you may draft another suicide note. There is no perfect suicide note.

 

[TheEndof]

I understand. I found out my fiancé has been having an affair with multiple women for probably years now. He even flew one out while I was visiting my mother for a week. It is absolutely devastating. I've had moments when I wanted to ctb on impulse in the last month or so, but ultimately am staying alive for our baby.

With that, I've drafted several suicide notes and could not find it in me to write about anything but him and his continued betrayal, despite so much else that has gone and is going wrong in my life. Maybe once the shock and intense pain wears off I'll be able to write a detailed note that addresses everything because at the end of the day, he's not the one who has made me get to this point. I was here long before I met him. He's just the straw that broke the camel's back and made me realize how fucked up life and just about everyone in it is at the end of the day.