I'm leaving this site behind

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

I thought about this for a while now because I wanted to give recovery a second try.

Not everything is lost for everyone and this forum is not purely for suicide discussions.
Not to appear as a hypocrite because most of my posts on this site indicated a strong desire to die but of course what goes on in my head the rest of the time is unknown to the outside.
Is this being silly? Well I change my mind a lot because I realized that I despite my suicidality - strong or not - I don't know what I want and that is a problem of course.

The thing is that you can always kill yourself if you know how to and even if what I plan to do fails.

Then why disjoin if I'm unsure? The wonderful people I had the pleasure of meating here were pleasent and also reading their thoughts and feelings about things helped me deal with my own dispare. But if I want to change something I should go outside of my own comfort zone and finally decide if I want to die or not, now I've chosen not because I realized that my life may not be as bleak as, as... as the one of the many others on this site and that it may not be worth it?

It's very individual what would push you over the edge and what not. In the end it is all up to you and this very thing I suppose. But one thing I'm sure about: I'll never talk badly about the people on this site or this site in general just because I want to recover. The media is disingenuous enough already and I support self-determination of adults what to do with their life and health.

Goodbye.

 

[Goku Black]

I wish you all the best in going forward, to give life another try isn't easy and it was an absolute pleasure to have interacted with you whenever I did. I'll surely miss seeing you around here but nevertheless, hope that everything comes together for you in your personal life.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Wishing you all that's good and lovely in the world.
I'm so happy to read you're giving life another try

 

[whywere]

Wishing you all the very best in life filled with love, laughter, beautiful sunrises and sunsets, and enjoying life's pleasures as simple as a ice cream cone on a summer day. Lovely, just like you.

Lots of hugs, love and the knowledge that you are loved.

ENJOY!

Walter

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

I wish you all the best in going forward, to give life another try isn't easy and it was an absolute pleasure to have interacted with you whenever I did. I'll surely miss seeing you around here but nevertheless, hope that everything comes together for you in your personal life.

It was a pleasure for me too. You will be remembered by me no matter what happens to you because you were one of the users I liked the most on here. Farewell Goku-san.

Wishing you all that's good and lovely in the world.
I'm so happy to read you're giving life another try

Thank you!

Wishing you all the very best in life filled with love, laughter, beautiful sunrises and sunsets, and enjoying life's pleasures as simple as a ice cream cone on a summer day. Lovely, just like you.

Lots of hugs, love and the knowledge that you are loved.

ENJOY!

Walter

I'm hoping that this spring and summer will be a fine one. I'm saying that because I wanna see the sun shine again.

 

[Goku Black]

It was a pleasure for me too. You will be remembered by me no matter what happens to you because you were one of the users I liked the most on here. Farewell Goku-san.

I didn't expect to be struck by such sadness but great happiness for you going forward, I cant say thank you enough for our conversations especially the common interests we shared. I wish you nothing but the very best, farewell Tokugawa-dono.

 

[Adûnâi]

I should unironically stop trying to help people because every time I do, I get associated with depression and then left behind.

(This shouldn't be taken to mean that I do help people, I'm not that hubristic to assume such.)

 

[4.I.2.Must.Die]

I thought about this for a while now because I wanted to give recovery a second try.

Not everything is lost for everyone and this forum is not purely for suicide discussions.
Not to appear as a hypocrite because most of my posts on this site indicated a strong desire to die but of course what goes on in my head the rest of the time is unknown to the outside.
Is this being silly? Well I change my mind a lot because I realized that I despite my suicidality - strong or not - I don't know what I want and that is a problem of course.

The thing is that you can always kill yourself if you know how to and even if what I plan to do fails.

Then why disjoin if I'm unsure? The wonderful people I had the pleasure of meating here were pleasent and also reading their thoughts and feelings about things helped me deal with my own dispare. But if I want to change something I should go outside of my own comfort zone and finally decide if I want to die or not, now I've chosen not because I realized that my life may not be as bleak as, as... as the one of the many others on this site and that it may not be worth it?

It's very individual what would push you over the edge and what not. In the end it is all up to you and this very thing I suppose. But one thing I'm sure about: I'll never talk badly about the people on this site or this site in general just because I want to recover. The media is disingenuous enough already and I support self-determination of adults what to do with their life and health.

Goodbye.

So even being a member of the recovery board isn't good enough for you then
Glad you're able to do what most of us cannot

 

[Dliena]

I wish you all the well OP and hopefully you can find solace and peace elsewhere.

 

[absntaknwldgmnt]

I thought about this for a while now because I wanted to give recovery a second try.

Not everything is lost for everyone and this forum is not purely for suicide discussions.
Not to appear as a hypocrite because most of my posts on this site indicated a strong desire to die but of course what goes on in my head the rest of the time is unknown to the outside.
Is this being silly? Well I change my mind a lot because I realized that I despite my suicidality - strong or not - I don't know what I want and that is a problem of course.

The thing is that you can always kill yourself if you know how to and even if what I plan to do fails.

Then why disjoin if I'm unsure? The wonderful people I had the pleasure of meating here were pleasent and also reading their thoughts and feelings about things helped me deal with my own dispare. But if I want to change something I should go outside of my own comfort zone and finally decide if I want to die or not, now I've chosen not because I realized that my life may not be as bleak as, as... as the one of the many others on this site and that it may not be worth it?

It's very individual what would push you over the edge and what not. In the end it is all up to you and this very thing I suppose. But one thing I'm sure about: I'll never talk badly about the people on this site or this site in general just because I want to recover. The media is disingenuous enough already and I support self-determination of adults what to do with their life and health.

Goodbye.

So so so glad you are taking this leap. I am sure it will be hard, but you sound so strong. Good luck on the outside and I hope your recovery is permanent

 

[voidstar]

Ich wünsch dir nur das Beste auf deinem weiteren Weg!
Es ist definitiv die beste Entscheidung, dass du dir erstmal darüber im Klaren wirst, was du möchtest.

 

[Adûnâi]

I'm sorry for the passive-aggressive tone, I give you my word that this won't push me closer to suicide, at least.

I hope the wind carries you where you want to go!

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best and good luck!

 

[LoiteringClouds]

I thought about this for a while now because I wanted to give recovery a second try.

I love to see goodbye threads on Recovery section - I'm very happy to hear that! I think I'll miss you, but one day I hope to post a goodbye thread here, like you!

I'll never talk badly about the people on this site or this site in general just because I want to recover. The media is disingenuous enough already and I support self-determination of adults what to do with their life and health.

Thank you so much for understanding us
You taught me the sun will rise again!

From "the land of the rising sun" (what a hubristic name!)

Lots of love,
LoiteringClouds

 

[slightoverlooked]

i wish you all the best!!!

 

[MortalityScares]

Goodluck <3

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I thought about this for a while now because I wanted to give recovery a second try.

Not everything is lost for everyone and this forum is not purely for suicide discussions.
Not to appear as a hypocrite because most of my posts on this site indicated a strong desire to die but of course what goes on in my head the rest of the time is unknown to the outside.
Is this being silly? Well I change my mind a lot because I realized that I despite my suicidality - strong or not - I don't know what I want and that is a problem of course.

The thing is that you can always kill yourself if you know how to and even if what I plan to do fails.

Then why disjoin if I'm unsure? The wonderful people I had the pleasure of meating here were pleasent and also reading their thoughts and feelings about things helped me deal with my own dispare. But if I want to change something I should go outside of my own comfort zone and finally decide if I want to die or not, now I've chosen not because I realized that my life may not be as bleak as, as... as the one of the many others on this site and that it may not be worth it?

It's very individual what would push you over the edge and what not. In the end it is all up to you and this very thing I suppose. But one thing I'm sure about: I'll never talk badly about the people on this site or this site in general just because I want to recover. The media is disingenuous enough already and I support self-determination of adults what to do with their life and health.

Goodbye.

Best of luck to you

 

[heavyeyes]

Goodluck <3

 

[penguinl0v3s]

If you change your mind a lot then I think you still want to live, even though it is hard. Best of luck to you.