I'm going to snap one day

[jajajamielee]

Literally the title, that's it, I'm going to fucking snap.
I've been saying "just make it to Fiday!" for far too long and I've finally realized that Friday's just another shit day and nobody cares enough to look at me and realize I'm on the brink of going insane.
I'm treated like I'm retarded and entirely incapable of literally ANYTHING by my fucking God awful father and God forbid I ask if I can go on antidepressants because he doesn't like how they made him feel when he took them and if I take them then "you can go live on the streets for all I care" to directly quote him.
And while we're at it here's a vent from a while back when (surprise surprise) he tried to convince my doctor that I'm so mentally incapable of doing anything that I shouldn't even be allowed to schedule my own appointments:
my dad just claimed I'm incapable of making my own medical decisions or even making my own damn doctor's appointments bcs I'm too mentally retarded
Mind you this was in a doctors office
In the middle of the lobby, at the front desk
He is also currently claiming he has a say in all my medical decisions just because I live under his roof
It got to the point where the lady asked if he has power of attorney over me bcs he was acting so controlling
Then when we got out to the parking lot he got in my face and told me that if I ever embarrassed him like that and make him look like an asshole like that again then I can just do everything myself
He apparently overheard me telling my doctor about what he does and he was fucking PISSED when we got home
And now apparently if he doesn't have full control over all my medical decisions I'm homeless
But not only that he went on a whole fucking rant about how worthless I am and that I can't do anything without him and I'd be dead without him
Unfortunately while we were there at the doctor I had him step out under the guise of me talking to the doctor about lady stuff, when in reality I was telling her about how my dad acts and treats me because she was my new doctor because my old doctor retired and I figured maybe she'd believe me. more on that in a minute.
when me and my dad got home he took all forms of communication from me. all of them.
and unfortunately a few days later I heard him on the phone convincing my doctor that I'm a liar and that she shouldn't trust anything I say. I assume unfortunately that she believed him.

I'm going to fucking kill myself one day I swear to God bro I can't take this shit

 

[_Maya]

Literally the title, that's it, I'm going to fucking snap.
I've been saying "just make it to Fiday!" for far too long and I've finally realized that Friday's just another shit day and nobody cares enough to look at me and realize I'm on the brink of going insane.
I'm treated like I'm retarded and entirely incapable of literally ANYTHING by my fucking God awful father and God forbid I ask if I can go on antidepressants because he doesn't like how they made him feel when he took them and if I take them then "you can go live on the streets for all I care" to directly quote him.
And while we're at it here's a vent from a while back when (surprise surprise) he tried to convince my doctor that I'm so mentally incapable of doing anything that I shouldn't even be allowed to schedule my own appointments:
my dad just claimed I'm incapable of making my own medical decisions or even making my own damn doctor's appointments bcs I'm too mentally retarded
Mind you this was in a doctors office
In the middle of the lobby, at the front desk
He is also currently claiming he has a say in all my medical decisions just because I live under his roof
It got to the point where the lady asked if he has power of attorney over me bcs he was acting so controlling
Then when we got out to the parking lot he got in my face and told me that if I ever embarrassed him like that and make him look like an asshole like that again then I can just do everything myself
He apparently overheard me telling my doctor about what he does and he was fucking PISSED when we got home
And now apparently if he doesn't have full control over all my medical decisions I'm homeless
But not only that he went on a whole fucking rant about how worthless I am and that I can't do anything without him and I'd be dead without him
Unfortunately while we were there at the doctor I had him step out under the guise of me talking to the doctor about lady stuff, when in reality I was telling her about how my dad acts and treats me because she was my new doctor because my old doctor retired and I figured maybe she'd believe me. more on that in a minute.
when me and my dad got home he took all forms of communication from me. all of them.
and unfortunately a few days later I heard him on the phone convincing my doctor that I'm a liar and that she shouldn't trust anything I say. I assume unfortunately that she believed him.

I'm going to fucking kill myself one day I swear to God bro I can't take this shit

Your dads an asshole, you should not let him have a choice over your medical health. Just because you live under his roof doesn't mean he can control every bit of your life. Don't give in and give him power of attorney, power of attorney is something important and only you or someone you really trust should be in control of that. You should consider moving out if you have the money to do so, otherwise i wish you luck.

 

[jajajamielee]

Your dads an asshole, you should not let him have a choice over your medical health. Just because you live under his roof doesn't mean he can control every bit of your life. Don't give in and give him power of attorney, power of attorney is something important and only you or someone you really trust should be in control of that. You should consider moving out if you have the money to do so, otherwise i wish you luck.

I can't do anything about it because I'm still a college student and I can't get a job yet with my schedule, that and I never know when he'll take away my means of communication just because he feels like it so what's the point if I have no way to contact anyone if something happens or if I need to contact my boss or what have you. I don't plan on giving him power of attorney EVER. that's never happening. I hate him with every fiber of being for destroying my childhood and traumatizing me every step of the way and you better believe he's going in the worst nursing home I can find when he's elderly. clearly he was incapable of providing me care l the care I needed when I needed it most so he'll likewise not receive such care when he needs it most.

 

[Slipofthetrigger]

Wow, I don't even know what to say besides the obvious, your dad is a piece of shit. I love how he claims that you embarrassed him in front of everyone else, when he is the one acting like a jackass in public. Completely understand your anger.

 

[5karlet]

my friend had a dad like yours. one day they got into a fight and he HAD to leave after that and ever since he's been happier. just because you have to deal with him now does not mean you will forever. even if it's for a while. the rain has to stop eventually

 

[jajajamielee]

my friend had a dad like yours. one day they got into a fight and he HAD to leave after that and ever since he's been happier. just because you have to deal with him now does not mean you will forever. even if it's for a while. the rain has to stop eventually

I'm on the streets after my class at my college ends, was just informed of this by my dad a few minutes ago

 

[5karlet]

I'm on the streets after my class at my college ends, was just informed of this by my dad a few minutes ago

damn what the fuck bitch ass fuck ass dad. you don't have anyone else to turn to?