I'm going to die on March 28

[readybready]

At least that's the plan. Last time I tried to attempt suicide I went into the woods with an extension cord and tried hang myself. I only gave myself a week's notice. I think if I push it back this far I'll have a lot of time to think about it and do my last actions.
I doubt my life will get any better in this period. I have hope, but it's pointless. Ultimately, I will be no different on the 28th of March than I will be today. Only 123 days to go.
Why did I decide to do the 28th? I'm not comfortable sharing, but I want someone to at least know that I've decided on a date. I just want people to understand me. I want to have support in the meanwhile. I can't do this anymore.

 

[lymbo]

whats wrong ln your lyfe that ls beond repalr?

 

[readybready]

whats wrong ln your lyfe that ls beond repalr?

Shame. Just so much shame of who I am. I'm so sick of being me. Sick of unrequited love, sick of having no future. For all my life I have been depressed and I just want it to end.

 

[SawItOnce]

I'm sorry you experience this, overwhelming shame is a terrible thing to live. I've known enough of it so please believe me I understand how it kills. I hope in these 123 days something will change about it for you. Wish you luck and thank you for sharing this intimate date with us.

 

[TAW122]

I'm very sorry to hear about your situation and whether you change your mind before then, or still decide to follow through, I wish you the best and peace of mind.