Leonard_Bangley39
Hate life but scared of death
- Nov 6, 2025
- 253
I can't take it anymore. It feels like I'm literally going to die from chronic loneliness and touch starvation. It feels like it's ripping away at my insides. i cant take it. Every single day i goon like crazy to cope just because it's the one thing that eases my loneliness, but even then, half the time it just makes me feel even worse because gooning makes me feel like I'm worthless and don't deserve love because I'm a degenerate pervert. i cant stop. im a worthless degenerate person and i have a worthless degenerate mind. i crave affection. i want to hold a woman in my arms. I want to feel her run her fingers through my hair while we cuddle. i want to fall asleep in someone's arms. but i don't deserve anything. i deserve nothing. no matter what everyone says to me, no matter what, i know deep down that i truly deserve nothing. im not a person worth loving. im ugly, antisocial, awkward, never had a relationship, have no idea how to have a relationship, no idea how to maintain a relationship, no idea how to keep a relationship, I'm a bad person and i deserve nothing. nobody wants me, i just need to accept it already
