Fthis
Student
- Dec 8, 2020
- 192
I just got the sodium nitrite. Just a few months ago I thought if I had a way to kill myself, I would. But now it finally arrived, made it through customs, and all I can get myself to do is stare at the bottle. What if something goes wrong? What if I end up in a mental hospital? What if I end up worse then before? What if my last minutes are suffering?!?!?! Then my brain is making up these redicu trivial reasons to live!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't want to live but I can't die even when I have the sodium nitrite right in front of me.