Treku
why am I even alive
- Oct 15, 2023
- 58
I am quite literally forgetting my life and what is happening in it both past and present.
I don't know what's happening. a couple years ago it was just that I didn't remember any of my childhood. thought was was like normal and moved on with life. but as times gone on I'm loosing more and more time. it went from me struggling to remember what happened in the recent history of my life(like that last year or so), then to like forgetting the last week. now I'm forgetting the day as it happens. like fuck is sucks so bad cos there's so much shit I need to remember yet I don't even know if I got told it.
like today. I have no fucking clue what I did. I know there was stuff I was supposed to remember bc I got asked abt it. but I didn't fucking remember. like wtf it's like my days don't even exist anymore
anyway just another thing on the pile of reasons to ctb.
I don't know what's happening. a couple years ago it was just that I didn't remember any of my childhood. thought was was like normal and moved on with life. but as times gone on I'm loosing more and more time. it went from me struggling to remember what happened in the recent history of my life(like that last year or so), then to like forgetting the last week. now I'm forgetting the day as it happens. like fuck is sucks so bad cos there's so much shit I need to remember yet I don't even know if I got told it.
like today. I have no fucking clue what I did. I know there was stuff I was supposed to remember bc I got asked abt it. but I didn't fucking remember. like wtf it's like my days don't even exist anymore
anyway just another thing on the pile of reasons to ctb.