This is not a goodbye post but a post like before it, my time is very soon.
The important step towards my ctb was making the peace with it. I am actually accomplishing it. Death doesn't scare me as much it used to do.
I just think and think for hours, and my suicide seems the best option for me, it makes sense, if I continue to live, I will suffer more and more without getting better and actually it's going to get worse.
Logically, I am supposed to die, I can't let my already dead emotions take over me, they can't. I became so careless already because of my mental disorder (DPDR).
I will actually feel like myself when I ctb, because it's what needs to be done. For once, I will affect things for how they need to be affected.
It's very soon, and I made peace with it. I am proud of myself in some sense.
The important step towards my ctb was making the peace with it. I am actually accomplishing it. Death doesn't scare me as much it used to do.
I just think and think for hours, and my suicide seems the best option for me, it makes sense, if I continue to live, I will suffer more and more without getting better and actually it's going to get worse.
Logically, I am supposed to die, I can't let my already dead emotions take over me, they can't. I became so careless already because of my mental disorder (DPDR).
I will actually feel like myself when I ctb, because it's what needs to be done. For once, I will affect things for how they need to be affected.
It's very soon, and I made peace with it. I am proud of myself in some sense.
