Venting I'm done trying

[Life_and_Death]

I don't want to keep trying anymore... At this point it's just putting off the inevitable...

 

[botanormal]

I'm so sorry you're feeling this way, life can be so tiresome sometimes. No matter what you decide to to, I hope you're able to get some peace from all of this suffering. It must feel so exhausting having to feel this way all the time. If you ever feel like talking about it more, we're all here to listen, just feel free to do whatever makes you comfortable. I'm sending big hugs your way!

 

[yive]

i stopped trying too... a long time ago. ctb is absolutely inevitable for me

 

[WornOutLife]

Yeah, trying over and over again is exhausting.
Hope you can find peace soon, pal.

 

[LonelyDude15]

I feel the same way. Even if things were to get better what's the difference between ending it now and ending it 70 years from now. All dead people end up in the same place.

 

[Buffy5120]

I feel the same way. Even if things were to get better what's the difference between ending it now and ending it 70 years from now. All dead people end up in the same place.

Theres no difference honestly I keep telling my self please get yourself out of here before you lose all your cognitive abilities and your memory is gone....my family likes to see me suffer apparently they are brainwashed its fucking scary if u think about it....

Yeah, trying over and over again is exhausting.
Hope you can find peace soon, pal.

Definitely is i even got worse doing this process

 

[LonelyDude15]

they are brainwashed its fucking scary if u think about it....

By brainwashed do you mean religious?

 

[Buffy5120]

By brainwashed do you mean religious?

No because they haven't been through anything ive been through and are looking at my life through their perception on life and think "i can get better" even though i tried so many times i lost count they say things to me like "Life is so great...you have to fight through it every second for 365 days a year, no matter how many times it unendlessly tortures you"they will never ever agree with me and want to keep me suffering because they dont want to accept the fact that what im going through is real and that life can very much get so bad, that its not worth which is denial....its so fucked up

 

[yive]

my family likes to see me suffer apparently they are brainwashed its fucking scary if u think about it....

omg, i'm in the same boat :(
fucking slavery...

 

[Deleted member 94]

I know how you feel especially when your left of worst than before trying. All of my attempts fell on deaf ears of my family.

 

[Ghost2211]

I understand. Every day I keep trying and keep pushing forward to make everything work. I keep going because I have to, but it's absolutely exhausting. I hope you are able to find peace and resolution.

 

[DeathBySuicide]

I'm so sorry you feel this way. I know what it's like to be fighting so hard to live, but being unable to do it anyways. I know what it's like to want to give in to your urges, to want to CTB. I know how hard it is. I really hope you'll find a way to deal with your pain soon. Talking about it has helped me a lot, I think it may help you, too. Best of luck to you

 

[justsad&done]

I can relate. I am tired of going through the motions and having everyone around me tell me to try harder and move on. It wears you down and the hopelessness is overwhelming.
I hope you find peace...

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Sorry to hear that OP I think a lot of us can relate to this. I have been trying to long. Ctb is so close now. Can almost taste it

 

[sadworld]

I understand you. I just keep trying too, it's so exhausting. I'm just waiting for everything to fall down on me.

 

[umbrellaphone]

I really want to give you some word of encouragement, OP, but doing that would only make me a hypocrite because I too have given up hope since some time ago. Now I'm just biding my time until Mr. Reaper decides to drop me a visit.

 

[profoundexperience]

By brainwashed do you mean religious?

"Life is so great...you have to fight through it every second for 365 days a year, no matter how many times it unendlessly tortures you"they ... want to keep me suffering because they dont want to accept the fact that what im going through is real

I think the real religion (before any other) on Earth is the faith and worship of the belief, "Life is a good thing." One literally can't do anything else without believing this to some degree.

But life isn't a good thing. This isn't "going anywhere". The universe has no problems we're here to solve. All our problems come from the fact we exist... and those problems would matter to no one if we ceased existing.

Exactly what are we trying to achieve here? Recently Jeff Bezos (the Amazon guy) "announced" that he looks forward to the time when there are 1,000,000,000 (one-trillion) human beings "in the solar system".

"The solar system can easily support a trillion humans," says Bezos. "And if we had a trillion humans, we would have a thousand Einsteins and a thousand Mozarts and unlimited, for all practical purposes, resources and solar power unlimited for all practical purposes. That's the world that I want my great-grandchildren's great-grandchildren to live in."

Fork him and fork that!

Jeff Bezos dreams of a world with a trillion people living in space

The Amazon and Blue Origin boss lays out the reality he envisions for his great-grandchildren’s great grandchildren.

www.google.com

 

[greycatsmiles]

I don't want to keep trying anymore... At this point it's just pu

I feel the same. Nothing is going to get better. The old and I'll
will beseen as a burden, inconvenience. Society is getting worse not better

 

[lonerclown666]

Same i will very surprised if im still alive in december next year