Venting I'm disturbed by hanging videos

[Mary Janex]

I just watched videos of people hanging themselves and it really disturbed me. I wonder how people can overcome themselves to do it. It looks really uncomfortable and brutal to me and I don't think I would want to be found like that. It looks so horrible.... I have these Images in my head all the time now. Before I heard about SN I thought about to ctb like that but now I've seen how bad it actually looks and I personally could never bring myself to do it.

 

[MathConspiracy]

I steer clear of such content. Keep in mind that every suicide is different. Most of them aren't that gruesome.

I just got banned from WPD anyway.

 

[Kalista]

for the ones easily affected by those videos yet is choosing to die, stop watching them and reading any details of the aftermath. since it can be enough to put a stop to the act because of the sensitivities developed that exists in that person's mind.
this is at times used as a tactic to inflict fear on people preventing them from doing what they need/want to do.

 

[cait_sith]

I wonder if pointing a camera at yourself gives you a push to do it, I sadly couldn't bring myself to kick the chair yet, it's an extremly difficult motion to execute, it's astonishing how some people are able to imedetely kick the chair after standing on it. I feel kind of bad and fucked up for watching this stuff but I feel like desensitisation will help me do it.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Guess it all depends on how badly you need out, and what's available to you, that ultimately controls what you're able to do.

 

[mirage]

Some people are very desperate and what they are going through is worse than hanging themselves and it all being over. It's roughly 30 seconds of suffering for everything to end and for some that's a good deal.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like a horrible method to me as well, I'd fear it going wrong and leading to way worse suffering and torture, all I personally hope for is to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again, I just wish for a death as peaceful as possible with no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[AmataBlank]

A lot of the hanging videos I've seen show partial hanging, and honestly, that doesn't seem too unsettling to me. But when it comes to full suspension hanging I don't find it isn't that disturbing either, especially since I've tried it for about 90 seconds (it's was painful)

 

[Worndown]

Death is unsettling. They are all brutal in some way. Watching videos of your preferred method should be likened to homework. If a video upsets you, maybe you should search out another method.

 

[divinemistress36]

The hanging videos disturb me to. The jumping ones disturb me less for some reason even though there is more blood and guts when they hit the ground

 

[deadbidaylight]

The hanging videos disturb me to. The jumping ones disturb me less for some reason even though there is more blood and guts when they hit the ground

I am exactly in the same boat as you. The hanging videos are almost haunting to me. And the involuntary convulsions are really hard to watch. The act itself doesn't scare me (it's still my preferred method) but I really don't want to watch others do it. I tried and the videos now live rent free in my head against my will.

The jumping videos or jumping in front of trains/cars don't really affect me much at all.

 

[Namelesa]

The hanging videos disturb me to. The jumping ones disturb me less for some reason even though there is more blood and guts when they hit the ground

I am exactly in the same boat as you. The hanging videos are almost haunting to me. And the involuntary convulsions are really hard to watch. The act itself doesn't scare me (it's still my preferred method) but I really don't want to watch others do it. I tried and the videos now live rent free in my head against my will.

The jumping videos or jumping in front of trains/cars don't really affect me much at all.

interesting youse find those less disturbing. I am personally absolutely fine and comfortable with watching a hanging video but I am not wanted to ever go near to seeing a more gory and bloody suicide from just seeing one real life gore video in my life. Maybe I am just not at all disturbed by seeing death itself but just disturbed by seeing blood and gore cus of me being squeamish sometimes.

 

[divinemistress36]

I am exactly in the same boat as you. The hanging videos are almost haunting to me. And the involuntary convulsions are really hard to watch. The act itself doesn't scare me (it's still my preferred method) but I really don't want to watch others do it. I tried and the videos now live rent free in my head against my will.

The jumping videos or jumping in front of trains/cars don't really affect me much at all.

Yes, its the involuntary convulsions that freak me out . The jumping ones they die so quick

 

[deadbidaylight]

Yes, its the involuntary convulsions that freak me out . The jumping ones they die so quick

Yeah maybe that's why it's easier to watch. I know the people in the hanging videos are unconscious when that happens but it's still hard to watch nonetheless. And I don't want to see their faces. With the jumping videos they're always further away so you never see that. You never see struggle.

 

[AmataBlank]

seriously guys not bothered by those jumping videos? I think they're even worse, especially the ones with a gun to head videos

 

[Jade10666]

I am disturbed by them for two reasons - you are watching someone die, and second, they put a camera up for others to watch

Nevertheless, I have learned from them - and I still find it's my preferred method - because most of the disturbing segments are when they are unconscious, and I feel I am learning from them. As for the camera watching - strangely enought it resonates with me - maybe its a way not to die alone.
I am disturbed by them for two reasons - you are watching someone die, and second, they put a camera up for others to watch

Nevertheless, I have learned from them - and I still find it's my preferred method - because most of the disturbing segments are when they are unconscious, and I feel I am learning from them. As for the camera watching - strangely enought it resonates with me - maybe its a way not to die alone.

I am exactly in the same boat as you. The hanging videos are almost haunting to me. And the involuntary convulsions are really hard to watch. The act itself doesn't scare me (it's still my preferred method) but I really don't want to watch others do it. I tried and the videos now live rent free in my head against my will.

The jumping videos or jumping in front of trains/cars don't really affect me much at all.

For whatever reason I am disturbed by hanging videos, I learn something from it

 

[zombiegirl]

I steer clear of such content. Keep in mind that every suicide is different. Most of them aren't that gruesome.

I just got banned from WPD anyway.

how do you even get banned from that place

 

[MathConspiracy]

how do you even get banned from that place

I know, right? I commented on a post about cancer tumors something like "Lucky me will never gonna go through that since I'm offing myself soon". Then the site gave me a permanent ban.

I guess I'll just make a new account.

 

[JesiBel]

For me, it was quite the opposite; they encouraged me to decide to choose that method. Being suspended, the rope, the spasms and convulsions, as if one were a puppet. Every now and then I watch videos, I'm obsessed.

 

[Avril]

I'm 50-50 with gore, but hanging videos are the easier to watch guides for anyone attempting partial. Hate blood splatter though

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

If the video shows the facial expression of the hanging person you will see, that the face is only contorted with pain for a short period of time, the conscious period. In most cases the face is not even contorted during that phase. After this 5 to 15 seconds the face looks peaceful and relaxed. When finally after about two minutes the last body movements have faded I really envy the hanged person.

 

[divinemistress36]

I know, right? I commented on a post about cancer tumors something like "Lucky me will never gonna go through that since I'm offing myself soon". Then the site gave me a permanent ban.

I guess I'll just make a new account.

Thats nut. Dudes talk about raping dead corpses on there and you get banned for that

 

[NonEssential]

Unfortunately SN and everything required for that method isn't as easily sold like rope is in your nearest hardware store.
I've seen a lot of NSFL videos so I'm kinda desensitized to those.

 

[monolog]

Yeah, it's available and fast method but I believe is pretty painful. Most people do it while drunk somehow

 

[AmataBlank]

doing sn while being drunk why??

 

[Lostmyonlyson]

I just got banned from WPD anyway.

Do you mena WPD from reddit? I didn't know it still existed?

Most people do it while drunk somehow

Chris Cornell did it with a thera-band exercise thingy and lots of prescription pill, don't think it was paiful tho.

 

[MathConspiracy]

Do you mena WPD from reddit? I didn't know it still existed?

Nope, they have a website now.

 

[silverbones]

I found them informative, but I can see why it could be off-putting for some.